lonely endeavor

Feel

I hate this feeling.
I am in love.
I am so complete thinking about them.
I need it all.
I want it all.
I want to hold.
I want to kiss.
I want them all to me.
Why can't they want the same with me?
I want them to want me.
To love me.
To need me.
I know they don't want me.
They don't see me in the same way. I fucking know that, but I want them to.
Or I want this fucking feeling of wanting them to go away.
I am going to have to let go.
I need to.
I'm just afraid of not feeling again.