When You Have A Life Crisis But You're Just a Lonely Nerd (Hosie AU)

Wait A Minute

Here's a quick update: it's been a week since Josie slept over at my house, and my brain has since gone completely haywire. Before, when I thought Josie was straight as an arrow, my feelings towards her were like a knife to my heart. But now that there's a minuscule possibility that Josie could like me back, I feel like my whole outlook on our friendship is...different. But in a good way.

I've found myself noticing new things about Josie as well. Like, for instance, how her nose scrunches in French class when we're going over a new grammar lesson. Or how she hates the taste of bacon unless it's fried in a pan, not microwaved. And on a deeper level, how Lizzie seems cast a shadow over Josie, except for when she's on the soccer field. That's when Josie seems to be truly at peace.

This is what I'm telling MG when he decides to butt his nose in my business.

"Josie this, Josie that! Oh my God, Josie actually did this last night! Josie, Josie, Josie!" MG's occasional sarcasm is so annoying. And for the record, his imitation of me is way too nasally. "When are you gonna grow a pair and ask Josie out, Hope?"

"MG, she's never going to like me in the way that I like her in a million years."

He gives me a look of exasperation and sighs.

"Hope, first of all, Josie isn't straight." I cut him off.

"Yeah, yeah. I know that, MG. Just because she likes girls doesn't mean she likes me."

"Okay... But lemme finish, though. I also see the way she looks at you. Kinda like...like you hung up all the stars in the sky." What the hell is MG talking about? Does she actually look at me like that?

I guess MG notices my disbelief because he continues on with, "Trust me, Hope. I can see it so clearly. She looks at you like you look at her."

"And how do I look at her, genius?"

"Hmm...You look at her like she's the answer to all of your problems. Oh, and like she has a million dollars!" He laughs loudly at his comment, and I decide to punch him in the arm. But then I get serious.

"Do you really think Josie likes me? And what if she doesn't and our friendship is ruined? I can't lose that." The thought of that ever happening makes my heart go numb.

"I can't tell you what Josie feels for sure, but the signs are all there. And your friendship is too important to the both of you for anything like this to ruin it." MG is kind of right. I mean, I'm still really anxious about the whole situation, but I know that our friendship is really too strong for that to happen.

"Okay, MG. I'll ask Josie to sleep over tonight, and then I'll tell her how I feel, once and for all!"

"There's the badass Hope that I know!"

His encouragement is like liquid courage to me. I definitely feel more confident about it then I did yesterday. Where is Josie anyway? I look around the school cafeteria to see if I can spot her. There she is! I'm just about to go up to her when I see something that stops me dead in my tracks.

She's hugging Landon Kirby.

———

You remember when I said I had more confidence about my feelings towards Josie? Well that's all gone now.

I just don't understand why she would be hugging someone in the middle of the cafeteria who isn't her sister. Well, actually, I know why. She's obviously freaking dating Landon, and I somehow missed the announcement! But seriously though, why wouldn't she have told me about this? Is it because of-

"Mikaelson!" Mr. Wilson snaps me out of my thoughts. "What is the end of the electron configuration for helium?"

I'm usually on my A-game in chemistry, but as you can see, I've been quite distracted today. Oh shit, everybody's looking at me.