A Golden Heart [discontinued]

ᗪO YOᑌ ᑕᗩᖇE?

ᑕᕼᗩᑭTEᖇ 3

Austin's POV.

The Aphrodite ball is coming near...Everything I've ever dreamt of...so close!
And even though, I should be going mad about it...I can't, but wonder...did Bri mean that she didn't want to go with me?
I don't understand her, I really, really don't!
Once second she's into me, the next - insulting me, the third - apologising!
I can't take it! All the stupid drama she just threw into my face! All the worry, the panic!
I can't keep going at her rate anymore...I'm to slow on her behalf...I'm not strong enough for her, I can't even deal with myself god damn it!
It was late. I:OO am. I put another drink down my throat. I don't care if it hurts me...I DON'T CARE!
Everything I ever do turns out to be for the worst! Micheal and Ritchie have to babysit me, I gave Bri that dark lotus, Xylo is ignoring me, usually even scolding me for trying to make a joke!
Ritchie stopped caring for me the way he once did, he acts like I'm not even human! Like I'm a minor and he's a god!
I can't take it anymore!
I stuffed a bit more of the dark red poison down into my stomach. It burnt the sides of my mouth.
I felt tears come out of my eyes, all of them dripping of, just like my hope.
I herd a knock at my door. I quickly hid the bottle wow wine, fully aware that I'm as 'wasted' as can be. I don't care anymore...I just DON'T!
I brushed away my tears and opened the door, there they were.
Ritchie, Micheal, Xylo and Bri.
"Hey Austin, we have a quest to complete, and you'll be coming with us!"
Micheal announced. Usually I'd be down for it! But right now, I'd rather vomit my guts out, until I feel the sadness and anxiety flood away.
"What if I don't want to?"
I asked them, my voice sounded slightly
wonky, but it tried to think as positively as I could.
"Wait, what? You don't want to better yourself-...AUSTIN YOU LOOK LIKE A SICK HOBO!"
I accidentally released a hiccup. I could feel the urges in my brain, telling me to end this conversation quickly. And run to my wine...
"Eh, I'm fine! I'm just feelin' a bit sick!"
Ritchie came up to me and put a hand on my shoulder.
"Austin, can we come in?"
I look at him with a confused look, and honestly...FUCK IT! LET EM' IN FRED!
"Yeh sure! Come in!"
Bri looked at me with a concerned stare, but I could care less at this point.
Xylo let out a sigh, preparing to 'clean' up my mess, but once he stepped in, his eyes widened.
My room was a mess. My mirror had scratches on it. Wine was spilled on the floor, all my items were everywhere! O' nelly were they surprised!
"Ya thirsty?"
Everyone nodded no. Xylo was about to ask about my room, but then I pulled out my box full of alcohol. I grabbed my wine.
"Well, more for me then!"
I sat in my usual goofy way. I chug down another bottle, once I'm finished with it, I through it down onto the floor, making it shatter. But, I mean, who gives a fuck? I don't! And I sure as fuck know they don't! Ha ha...
I felt my eyes start to drop, Xylo was telling something at me, then Micheal grabbed him by the shoulder and yelled something back, he seemed really angry with him. Bri ran to me and grabbed me, I was about to puke my guts out...my favourite part! Then I go to bed and clean in the fuckin' mornin'!
Bri was telling me something, but I couldn't understand her, I looked her right into her eyes and smiled.
"I'm faine Bri! I jus need to do sometin' simpl!"
I let out a laugh, Xylo was now arguing with Micheal, Ritchie grabbed Michael's hand, then told him something, then pointed to me and Bri.
I felt the wormhole inside my stomach start crawling up, I smiled. The pain...it was hella painful, but I love it every fuckin' time! Ha ha...
I started to puke out everything in my organism, Bri, probably panicked, let me go. I fell to the floor, using my hand as the only thing holding me up. I started to cry of pain, I felt the blood drip from my mouth, all the panic, all the worry...almost drowned out...it was almost perfect.
I felt myself fall onto my vomit. And then I drifted off to sleep...

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I was cleaning up the mess I made last night...the headache after is one heck of a ride! I didn't like it...
"Fred, it's my secret...and even if they look for the chest, they won't get in. I'll tell them it's somethin' else."
I smiled to the one thing that made me feel sane...it's like he's actually here...with me.
I was almost done, all I needed to do was pick up a shard of glass. As I did, I threw it into one of my cabinets.
A knock came from my door. I opened it and found the same group that was there last night.
"Hey Austin...how are you feeling?"
I looked at him with a confused look. I let out a small giggle. I didn't care if they were confused...I don't care. And in the end, I'm fine!
"Great! I had a really good sleep! How did all of chu sleep?"
I gave a big smile to them, but I felt the light in my eyes drip a tad...
"Austin...we want to look inside okay?"
Ritchie added, I opened the door even wider, they walked in to find a clean room. I want to hide under my sheets and cry... I slapped my face slightly.
I felt my cold body shiver. My nose was a bright red, I felt so tired with life... I can't wait for the ball...it will at least make me feel more human...
They looked around, then they came across that box...with the alcohol in it...
"Hey Bri! Please don't look in there! Umm...it's really personal! Yup!"
I felt my body sweat up. Ritchie looked at me with warm and calming eyes.
"Austin, I'd like to look in there please"
I didn't want him to look in, I really didn't!
Suddenly I felt somebody hug me from behind tightly...Xylo?!
"XYLO?!"
I saw them opening the chest...their faces changed color...they all went pale
"XYLO LET ME GO!! PLEASE JUST STOP!"
I screamed, I felt the tears drip from my eyes, Bri looked at me, her face looked so concerned.., but then she saw another main reason I was crying...
Xylo was chocking me...I felt an inability to breathe. My heartbeat started racing, my breath went to quick heights. I felt the cuts on my arms bloody out, all the pain at once was killing me...do I deserve this? Am I that bad?...I'm going to die.
I felt my eyes turn slightly red. I knew I was about to die, my body was turning slightly blue.
Bri threw a rock at Xylo, he suddenly let me go. Micheal and Ritchie both looked over to us, I started breathing franticly. My tears dripping from my eyes, some of them having blood. My hands shaking, under my sleeves blood started to drip out. I collapsed onto the ground holding my hand over my mouth.
Bri quickly ran over to me. She helped me stand up.
"XYLO! YOU ALMOST KILLED HIM!"
I looked over at him, my eyes were so dry. Micheal and Ritchie both ran over to me. Micheal held my head.
"Maybe...MAYBE HE DESERVES IT!-"
My eyes widened. Everyone's expression changed, I saw the slight tint of red in his eyes, and the purple had a magenta color in it...WAIT A DANF SECOND!
"GUYS- THAT ISN'T XYLO! HIS BODY IS BEEING MANIPULATED!"
Everyone looked at his eyes, they saw him fight the damn person who was using him...
Did he mean it?
I ran over to Xylo and gave him a big hug, I was preparing to put on my mask for the day...Another fake smile...
"XYLO! BREATHE!"
Whom ever was manipulating Xylo looked to me and smiled, in a sadistic way...
"Oh don't worry...he won't be the one in need of saving..."
I looked at him...and...I quickly let go, in fact, I YEETED back! I shut my eyes tight and grabbed onto Bri...
She held me into a hug. I felt the tears in my eyes fall onto her...soft skin...Austin. Seriously. Dude.
I herd glass breaking, I think Xylo jumped out my window.
"GO GET HIM! I'LL STAY WITH AUSTIN!"
I herd rabid footsteps, then two people jumping out.
I opened my eyes to see Bri hugging me.
"Austin...please...tell me why..."
And thus, my whole hell of a life is revealed to the well...one who saved my life...
I told her everything. I told her about my family, I told her about Fred, meeting her, my friends, my stepmom, my friends, my school, my anxiety, my fears and how this addiction came to be...
Bri let out a big sigh.
"Can we please...just burry the drinks...and if you feel like you want to get wasted...come to me love...I'll talk, and snuggle with you...okay?"
I smiled to her, now in tears.
I kissed her. I didn't care what it was like, but the kiss felt real.
After it ended, I felt all the joy in my life hug me, even give me bubbly kisses! Butterflies were bouncing and bumping into each other in my stomach!
She looked to me with a lovebird smile...I felt everything was almost right...
Almost...

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Word count : I7IO

A/N
Hey pep, hope you liked this heck of a traffic chapter!
Next chapter will dive into the smaller details of Austin's life!
So for now...
BAI YOU DIND DINS OF DINS DIN DINS DANCE!