The Ties that Bind Me Book 1

The Semi-Traitor In the Midst

His touch wasn't gentle as he propelled me backward. I felt the wall behind me and I moaned in pain as it rushed through me. He was on me like a wild animal, tearing at my clothes and pressing his mouth to my neck. In the distance I could hear screaming, and then I felt a pressure over my mouth as his fingers dug into my chin and found out it was me. He then pulled me over to the bed and the animal lust in his eyes scared me into insensibility. He walked slowly to the bed sizing me up and all I wanted to do was run but I knew that it would make my situation much worse. As he reached the bed he looked completely driven. The words he spoke seemed to contradict his movement.

"Calm down now, I promise it won't hurt. I can be a gentle lover sweet girl, and you don't look like one who likes pain. Relax now and I promise that this won't hurt, but fight me and I will make this the most painful experience you will ever have. Do you understand me girl."

I did the only thing I could, I nodded. He was then gentle, his hands moving over my neck and over my skin. I could actually see his face and he was stunning, absolutely stunning. I don't know what caused me to do it, but my mouth unhinged from my brain and words spilled out.

"How did you end up here? You are so strong and beautiful, what horror happened to you that landed you here?"

His face was surprised and he looked in my eyes to see the truth and honesty there. His face fell and he moved to the end of the bed. I took the chance to sit up and look in his beautiful green eyes, a depth to rival my own.

"How did you end up here Lolek? What happened that you ended up in this horror show?"

He couldn't hide the pain on his face as he opened his mouth then closed it many times as if trying to find the words to say.

"I ended up here a bit like you did; a family member getting in way over their head, but it wasn't my father that put me here. My mother was Ghassan's third in command and she was ruthless, when she found out that she was pregnant with me she just up and left. She and I lived well along the coast of Ireland, we made our way. We weren't rich but we were happy in the life we had. One day I came home and my mother was packing our bags and we were out, left our home behind. From there we moved around until Ghassan caught up with us. I watched as he killed my mother and at that point I vowed that I would be stronger than anyone who could dream to oppose me. I would get even with him for what he had done, and then I found myself sucked into the whirlwind that is Ghassan and his underground world. I felt the real me start to slip away with every beating, every lash of the whip until I couldn't find myself at all anymore. Today the only thing I could think of was to protect you from him, to not have someone else broken at his hands. Not sure where that thought went, but I think your screams really scared them. I know for certain that they will check to see if I took your virtue, and I haven't found out how to get around that, but I can promise that I won't hurt you. I am sorry about my behavior it was unbecoming."

I nodded slightly and wondered at him. He had spilled his life story after only knowing me for less than an hour. I wondered how long he had kept that inside himself, how long the pain had broiled under the surface ready to break. I knew I wasn't going to come out of this intact but to not be hurt I would have done anything to not hurt again. "I understand, but please I haven't done this at all before. I was never focused on guys or dating, I worked hard to achieve my dreams, not that it matters now. Please be careful, I don't want to hurt anymore."

He nodded his head and smiled, it wasn't just a small smile, but one that would have lit up a room in different circumstances. He came closer to me and took my hand. He placed my hand on his chest and looked at me now as a person more than just a piece of meat. "What were your dreams Imirial? I really want to hear what you wanted to do with your life."

I smiled a genuine smile at him. "I was on my way to Harvard to work through business school before going to California to work in Holistic Medicine. I wanted my own little shop where I could help people. I wanted to make my mother proud of me. She was my everything along with my twin brothers. I wanted them all to be proud of me. You know your eyes are so entrancing, has anyone ever told you that." 

I felt the heat rise in my cheeks as Iran my hand over his shirt and then down to the line of his pants. I pulled his shirt out of his pants, I wanted so much to touch his skin, to feel his hard muscles and all that silky skin. I heard him gasp above me and for just a second I started to panic, but the gasp turned to a moan and then I felt his hands caress my skin. In that moment I lost myself, lost my dreams and gave myself over to a part of me so long denied. 

His touch firm but gentle, his body hard but soft and I felt a new heat in my body. I got up on my knees, my hands still in his shirt and kissed him deeply. His lips were soft and yielding, yet the power of his body could even be felt in the kiss. In that one moment I wanted him, not anyone but him. Sweet saints he tasted of sweat and sweetness and as I felt him press my body to the bed I knew I was beyond the point of no return.