So Close but so far Away

1 more day

"One more day until I'm off to collage." I said as I jumped on my bed.
"Awhhh. I can finally be alone!"
Ten minutes after I realized I was so not ready to go.
"Damn it! Nothing's packed I'm leaving my family forever and I won't be with anyone I know!"
At this point I think I'm pretty sure I'm a huge disaster with everything, But I know there's no turning back now.

Since I have less then 24 hours I realized I should get a move on it and pack up all my stuff for collage in Germany. I started with my clothes, and there were a lot of them. Let me just say I have a full closet and a full dresser (I couldn't even fit one penny in there). As I put the last few things in my bags my little sister comes running in.

"Sorella maggiore I don't want you to leave!"

Sorella maggiore means big sister in Italian and my family was 100% Italian. But sorellina (what i call her) is little sister

"Aria, I have to go. I'll miss you, but i can't stay here forever."

"Yes you can!"

"No. Arianna I just can't!"

She started to cry.

"Sorellina, I'm going to go, so are going to let me, and I will miss you, you will miss me You have to realize that I can't just do everything for you my all my life. Something's have to be for me and this is one of those times. Sorry Sorella. I promise I'll visit every holiday and stay here every summer."

But that didn't help Aria at all. she stomped and was storming in tears all the way down the stairs and to mom.

"MOMMY! Sorella maggiore is being mean to me!

"Mom no I'm not Aria get over her! I need to talk to you about this!"

I just couldn't take her. it's like she only hears half of what I say!

"NO! MOMMY!!"

"Baby what's up."

She groaned knowing there was trouble coming.

"SHES LEAVING ME BECAUSE SHE HATES ME AND SHE SAYS IM THE WORST SISTER EVER BUT I DONT GET IT!!!!"

"I NEVER SAID THAT MOM! SHES SO FUCKING STUPID!!"

I shouted from my room upstairs

"Leah Olivia Taylor what did you just say? I am very disappointed in you now get down here instantly!"

"God damn you Ariana!"

"Girls tell me what's happening!"

"Aria is so annoying and dumb! I just can't take her!"

"No! I'm perfect let me be, you just want to leave me because you can't take it that you're not like me and you're the forgotten child and everyone loves me not you!"

"Fuck you Aria."

I stormed up to my room with anger.

"Get back here Leah Olivia!"

I didn't mean to say that to my sister that was 13 years younger then me. it just kinda came out! And it was all because that last sentence she said no she KNOWS that bugs me so much when she said the forgotten child.
I execrated that because my real dad hated me and he wouldn't let me forget it and he didn't really feel like a dad to me but my mothers new husband is more like my dad then he ever was

"What is wrong with you Leah?"

"I don't know."

Before I knew it I had tears running down my face.

"Mom believe me I didn't mean to but you know it bugs me!"

"Yes I know but don't you think it bugs your 6 year old sister dumb? She has dyslexia. do you no how much it kills her to know she has that and for you, her older sister who's. Suppose to be a role model for her is calling her dumb and leaving her? That's not fare, and I want you to think about that. Think hard Leah Olivia.

"Okay."

I groaned wiping away my tears in shame and packing away the rest of my stuff.

Late that night I realized I really need to talk to my sorellina and I needed to prove to her she matters to me.

"Hey, um Aria come her please."

"I'm trying to sleep leah."

"Just please."

"Fine."

I can tell she was pissed at me but I needed to do this.

"Hey can we hurry this up Leah? I need to sleep so I can get up early to drop you off."

"Yeah sure. Do you love me Arianna?"

"Yeah."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes why wouldn't I love you? Your my big sister my Sorella maggiore and I look up to you Leah. Yes. Yes I do love you and a lot. So that's why its hard for me to see you leave."

"Aww! Well I love you and no matter how far away I am from you, that won't change and I will call you every night and come home every brake and every single holiday. I promise. But you have to promise me something.

"What?"

"You'll take care of mom for me."

"What? Why she has to take care of me?"

"No. I have always been the one to take care of her. Me. now I'm gone so that's your job."

"I'm only 6"

"So? you can do anything once you can walk and talk. I believe in you Aria."

"But why? Isn't she an adult? Doesn't she know how to take care of herself?"

"Nope. Her smoking and her Drinking. that's not taking care of herself. Aria you need to understand that she's killing her self by doing that so you need to help her. By you doing that that's helping me."

"Even though you'll be 4,831 miles away from me?"

"Yes. and even though I'm in Germany and you'll still be here in Florida I know where to find you and will be okay. as long as you do your part."

"Okay."

"Love you Aria, go get some rest it's late babe.

"Okay night."

"Night."

"Actually, Leah can j sleep with you?"

"Yes. Yes you can."

"Thanks."

"Hurry up and get in don't forget to turn off the light."

"K."

It was a nice night and I will miss my little sister a lot but i know in 4 years I'll be back for good and with her. And my journey starts tomorrow.