Heart Attack

I know what you did last summer

I knew about Dick going after Barbara. Those times I had wanted to surprise him by visiting Mount Justice had confirmed his dirty secrets to me. Of course, I would come back to my house and cry my eyes out, nobody knew. It felt like my heart was tearing apart at the thought of my boyfriend slipping away. Was I just hanging on to all the words he used to say? My green eyes had caught a peek of those compromising pictures Nightwing had on his phone, oh I knew he wasn't coming home in a week or so.

It had all started since last summer, and I lived off his toxic lies. I knew the story very well, there's nothing like summer love. Someone under stress meets someone looking pretty. I knew there's trouble in the air, I could almost smell it.

"Tell me where you've been" I would ask when he arrived.

"On a mission babe"

Of course, he would lie, and I wouldn't ask. But I very well knew he had been with bat-girl. Why wouldn't he look in my eyes and understand the pain? But I couldn't let go, I couldn't let go unless he said he didn't love me. He was the only thing I had, my savior, my mentor, my only love. But now, he wasn't even there to love and hold. We had an apartment together, and not even that seemed to faze him. Had Nightwing ever loved me? Had he forgotten his promise to me that fateful night when they arrived at their new home? Maybe he did, maybe I wouldn't ever know the answer.

I would take care of him when he didn't sleep, offering food, help, and of course, blankets to make him comfortable. I hated to see him so vulnerable, I knew he was more in need of a break. But lately, it was every other week or so. I knew he was a man of honor, and I'm so sorry to be a bother at home. But I don't know where to go, and I came here all alone, and Dick the only one here who helped. He arrived home, tired as usual, I gave him a smile, he doesn't know its fake. Do I still love him? Yes.

"Dick, we need to talk"

"Kori, I'm tired" I frowned.

"This is urgent"

"Fine" he huffed.

"I was thinking about you, me...us"

"What do you mean by that?"

"Why don't I see you so often?"

"I told you, babe-"

"No more lies, please."

"I stay late to be able to have enough for both of us." I wasn't allowed a job since I could attract attention.

"But...you have to make it on your own to be your own person. Can't we have at least one movie night sitting on our sofa, drinking rum and cola until the sun rises?"

"No, I didn't have time Kori"

"All you have to do is stay a minute...Just take your time, maybe hold hands as you work, bring it home and we can solve it together!" I was desperate. But he only stared at me with dull eyes, where was the love? Those eyes that were a rainbow to my worst days? I wouldn't tell him what I already know, I couldn't. I've never been the best at letting go.

"I don't want to spend the night alone, please,"

"I just came for a change of clothes"

I didn't want to make it on my own. I don't want to grow up yet. I am eighteen in human years, he is twenty-one. I just wanted Dick to say something! I am giving up on him soon, I couldn't keep bleeding love for my night. I couldn't take the emotional pain. Now I have opened my eyes, Jason was right, I couldn't live in a dream forever. Will I come back? I don't know. Dick was so easy to love, but I guess that love wasn't enough. He left me standing there, taking his clothes with him, leaving the dirty ones to was.