Someone, Somewhere [boyxboy]

Chapter Seven

Danny POV:

I was standing outside the hotel, smoking a cigarette. I was still confused about the situation with Austin and Alan, as I hadn't spoken with him since two nights ago. Nobody had really seen him, but I'd heard that he and Ronnie had spent the day together, and I was unable to help but feel a pang of jealousy. Austin was mine first, goddammit! I mean, I knew that Ronnie was straight, or at least he pretended to be. What if he had been in denial like me, and Austin was the one who helped open his eyes? God, I hope that didn't happen. He didn't deserve someone so wonderful.. at least not my Austin. Him and Ronnie would just be a weird couple, with Ronnie being so tough and all, then the little marshmallow that was Austin. I wrinkled my nose at the thought.

My mind continued wandering as I took another drag from the cigarette, allowing it to work its magic and keep me relaxed. I didn't smoke that often because it damaged my voice, but I needed something to stay calm for now. We had a show in a couple hours, and then we were checking out of the hotel and heading to our next destination. Truth be told I had no idea where we were headed, but I didn't think it mattered to me right now. I could find out later, when my head was hopefully clear and I could actually focus on something.

Someone tapped my shoulder from behind and it caused me to jump. I turned to see who it was, ready to flip shit if it was some nosy fans because I just wasn't in the mood, but I found Jacky Vincent behind me. The guy was pretty quiet and from what I recall we've only spoken once or twice, though he seems alright. Ronnie has pretty high standards for his band, so I guess he's more than alright."Ya fucker, you scared me." I hissed, taking another drag from my cigarette as I stared at him. What the hell could he want, anyway?

Jacky muttered an apology as he averted his bright eyes. Oh, poor lad... I hadn't meant to intimidate him. God, I needed to relax before I let my temper get the best of me. "Sorry man, I was just uhh... wondering if you've seen Kellin anywhere?"

The question caught me off guard, but I dismissed my suspicion. "Nope, but he's probably at their bus or maybe still in his room. Why?" I didn't know why I questioned him, I'm sure he had a good reason for searching for Kellin.

His cheeks gained a bit of color, "I uhh.. he just... has something of mine. Thanks," he responded before practically running off into the hotel. I shook my head and took a final drag of my cigarette before putting it out, then headed back inside.

Jacky POV:

I don't think I could have messed that up any more. Dear God, what if Danny figured it out? Or he told someone else that I was looking for Kellin? Oh, no no no... I knew I wasn't a very confident guy, but this was something that could not get out. I couldn't dare run the risk of ruining Kellin's reputation even if he said he was fine with it, but I don't know if he could handle the hate. Hell, I don't know if I could, either. I was pretty envious of Alan and Austin coming out together so happily, but I'd seen some of the hate they received, and it was horrendous. I didn't want Kellin to be exposed to such horror, and I vowed to shield him from everything for as long as I could. I felt like I was the only one who could protect Kellin, and I planned on doing so with every ounce of my being.

That's right, Kellin and I are together. I've been gay ever since I could remember, but I never bothered to come out to the public. It was none of their business, anyway. There was always someone saying that they were just waiting for me to come out of the closet, but I never had the courage to... and why should I? I mean, I didn't want to go through that alone. And I know all of my family and friends would support me, but I wanted someone there to say that I was doing this for them, and myself. I wanted someone by my side no matter what, through everything.

I hadn't always had feelings like this for Kellin. I originally had a crush on Ryan, Falling in Reverse's drummer, but he was clearly straight so there was no hope there. But then Katelynn had died, and I felt horrid about the whole thing. I once had a best friend who died in a car accident like that; it was difficult to get over, but I did. I wanted to see Kellin do the same, so I pledged to help him. Then, slowly but surely, I developed feelings for him. I had only told him about these about a month and a half ago, and surprisingly, he agreed. At first I thought it was just the grief talking, his heart making a final attempt at healing itself, but I watched it all fade and see him get better. It wasn't the pain speaking, it was his heart. He was such a beautiful person..

I made my way up to the hotel room where I know he was saying. He shared the room with Justin and Gabe, and I prayed that the other two weren't in there. Taking a deep breath, I knocked, and waited a few long moments before the door was opened, revealing a shirtless Kellin. I grinned at him and he blushed, but pulled me in by my white shirt and crushed our lips together. We haven't gone all the way yet, as we had both agreed to take it slow and ensure that the relationship was filled with love and passion, not just heated sex.. but I swear to God, sometimes Kellin just drives me absolutely insane.

The tiny man pulled be to the bed and pushed me down, and we made out for a good while before we both pulled away, resting our foreheads on one another's. "I won't see you until our next show... that's two days away." I pouted, staring into his beautiful blue eyes.

He smiled, running his fingers gently through my hair. "That's okay... that'll just make getting back to you all the more better." he kissed me again, and I allowed that to cheer me up. "Have I ever told you how much I love your voice?"

I couldn't resist chuckling, looking away as I smiled at the ground. "About a million times."

We spent the rest of the time together, just sitting like that and talking. I knew one day that I would love Kellin, and I prayed that he would feel the same. What if he didn't? These thoughts scared me so much sometimes, but then they would fade away when I realized that if this did happen, I would just have to savor the moments I had with him. When it was finally time to go, we sadly pulled away from each other and said our goodbyes, kissing as passionately as we could. We couldn't have any sort of gestures like this while in public, to my disappointment. When I was finally out of his room, I headed down to join the rest of Falling in Reverse, smiling like an idiot all the way down.

A/N:

guys i cant handle the cuteness of jacky & kellin omg

i was fangirling the whole time i wrote this

theyre just so UGHHHH <333333333333333333