Candies and Clovers

Chapter five

Last one! Thank you angels for reading this far!

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  It's been four months since Clover died. Today was the day that the cut she left on my heart would rip itself back open.

Valentine's day was a happy day for high schoolers, most of the time they would walk around hand in hand or make out in the halls. Love was in the air or something like that bullshit. It was her favourite day of the year. My new least favourite.

The hallways were decorated with pink and red hearts strung down the trim of the hallway. Little notes from all of the students on them. Usually, I would have written at least five. This year I wrote none.

It felt like my heart was getting torn apart right in front of my face like nothing I ever did would truly fix things. She was gone. It was my fault.

Here it came the counsellor came up to me walking slowly with her hands in front of her a fake smile spread across her tiny lips. "Hey Candice" she was the only one who called me that after the multiple times I told her to call me Candy. "I've heard from a little birdy that you're going through something right now." she got quiet like it was some big secret. Four months kept under wraps. It wasn't a secret everyone knew it was nothing but the truth. Here she was four months later. Only talking to me about it because I skipped most of my classes yesterday. She didn't really care what I was going through, she just needed to ask and get me in trouble for skipping class. Nobody in this school really cared they all ignored me and treated me like shit. "FUCK OFF" All of my anger came out at once. I screamed it and the hallway got silent as kids stared at me from all angles.

Skateboard in my arms and a suspension note in my hands. I had nowhere else to go aside home.

It took me almost an hour to get home. I walked slow the entire time just trying to clear my head.

Headly was feeling okay so he went to school today and dad was at a bar no doubt. Meaning it was just me and my mum in the house.

I wanted a break from life even if it wasn't permanent. I just needed out for at least a minute or two. I went to the fridge and popped open one of my dad's bears. I have had a few of these but they make me feel like shit every time. I threw it against the wall and watched it shatter and beer slowly drip down the walls like the new tears dripping down my face.

I stood up and washed my face off sweeping up the broken glass and called Lucky. If anyone knew how to make me feel better it was my giant stupid dog. He ran down the stairs tail going a million miles per second as he stumbled down with his long stupid legs almost tripping over himself. I felt myself smile. Not a forced one a true smile for the first time in almost four months. I put the leash on him and grabbed my board.

We took off the wind blowing in my face as Lucky started running faster than he had in awhile. I felt myself smile and start laughing as Lucky stuck his tongue out like he was riding in a car. We started to slow down then all at once we stopped. I held onto Luckys leash and looked around me at what used to be the clean shiny new heart of the city. Now tall trees reaching all the way up to the sky with vines growing up and moss hanging out of them. Tall green grass was growing on the paved road we were just riding down. We weren't at home anymore.

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Clif hanger? Yes please! Anyways the next chapter explains my plans for where the book is going to go and what else I plan to do with it aswell as dates I hope to have it finished. Again thank you angels for sticking with me through this story!