Disrupt Me (Norman Reedus ff) [ON HOLD]

Chapter 3: The Day He Left.

Chapter 3: The Day He Left

The day quickly came back to the front of my mind. I remembered every single minute of that day like happened only the day before. Like it happened before I went to bed last night. It happened so long ago, but every feeling was still there.

On the front porch, I sat on the steps, a glass of tea setting next to me while I was reading one of the latest romance novels that I was so attached to and addicted to reading. I never understood why I read that genre of books; they were so cliché even before every storyline known to man was written up.

There was a slight breeze that made this very warm and humid day a lot more bearable. I read through at least ten pages, although not a word stuck in my brain. My mind was on other things: when was I going to get my life straight? When would Norman ever realize that I'm the one who actually loves him and not all those girls he ran around with on a daily basis?

I couldn't understand why, after all this time, why Norman couldn't see that I actually cared so much about him?

Not only did I care about him, but I actually loved him. I knew him like no one else knew him. I was there for him when he got drunk in the middle of the night and couldn't drive him. I was there for him when that idiot girl dumped him for some guy who didn't have a single brain in his head. I was there for him every single time he was heartbroken and not once did he consider me to be more than just his best friend. It didn't bother me that he trusted me enough to consider me a better friend than the guys he hung out with on the weekends. The only thing that bothered me, was that he never acted like he was interested in me that way.

Sure, he teased and played around with me, but he did that with every girl. So I couldn't feel special because of it.

After I read another five pages, a truck pulled up in my driveway.

The familiar rumble of the engine made it obvious to me that it was Norman. I didn't look up from my book until I heard the door open, then shut. My eyes squinted as the sun semi-blinded me. Norman was a blur until he stood directly in front of the beaming sunlight. My eyes adjusted while I set my book aside after marking the page I left off on.

"Where have you been?" I smiled a little bit, noticing the worry wines lines that were across his forehead. I couldn't recall anything that could have him worrying. It was always easy to tell with Norman. "I called you quite a few times." I stood from the step, my concern growing deeper once I realized those worry lines weren't going away.

"Yeah, sorry 'bout that." Norman apologized, purposefully not making eye contact with me. "I had to go somewhere for a couple hours."

"Are you alright?" I asked, ignoring what he was saying; only because he was never this serious. "You seem stressed."

"That's 'cause I am." He replied quickly. "There's somethin' I need to tell you. I've been tryin' to tell you for a while, but I could never find the words." Finally, finally, he made eye contact with me. Staring into those blue eyes- it was always familiar. It didn't matter how much different Norman attempted to be, I always felt so safe when he looked at me like that. "I just don’t know how t' say it, Mon."

I shook my head. "Norman, just tell me. It can't be that bad." I paused to assess his reaction; his expression wasn't giving me much hope. "Is it?"

"It depends." He sighed deeply. "I'm movin' to California in a couple days."

It hit me harder than an eighteen wheeler truck would ever hit me. How could Norman just be leaving for California? "What do you mean you're movin'?" I asked, trying so hard to make it seem as if I didn't care. I didn't want to look desperate. I didn't want to act like one of those girls who Norman had only slept with once. That just wasn't me.

"I have a thing with this company who's gettin' me in a movie and I have to move there for the deal." He explained further.

I tried the best I could to not say anything that could upset him. For a long time, I knew that this was something Norman wanted to do. It was something he had always dreamed about and I couldn't show how upset him moving away was going to make me. I couldn't let my own feelings get in the way of the one thing he was so passionate about.

I lifted my eyes to look at Norman again, seeing that he was just about to say something; almost like there was something stuck in his mind that he was wanting to say, but he just didn't know how to say it. Norman had always been that way with me.

"But, Mon. Look I-"
"No, really, I am so happy for you." I interrupted. "Really, that is really incredible. I'm so proud of you, really."

Out of nowhere, Norman chuckled. "You only use the word 'really' that much in one sentence when you're upset."

The other thing about Norman, he just knew me so much better than anyone else did. "No, re-" I paused. "Norman, I am proud of you. You go do your thing. I mean, I'm upset that my best friend is moving away from me, I'm not going to let that get in your way and you shouldn't either."

He nodded, a small smile still on his face. I admired him for that long second before his next sentence. The way those baby blue eyes just practically glowed when he was so passionate about one thing. That smile that could always fascinate me out of existence and he was so beautiful. He was so gorgeous and for that one long second, I could see why so many girls just wanted him to be theirs. And I wanted him.

"You know I won't forget you, right?" Norman mumbled, his voice almost deeper than usual.

"I know that." I laughed, although I had this overwhelming urge to cry. "I won't forget you either, Norman."

He smiled and reached over, his arms going around me while he pulled me into a tight hug. "You'll always be my girl."

I hugged him back the best I could, and I never wanted to let go. But inevitably, I had to and the day he left was the last time I had spoken to him since.

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So I guess this might be a little shorter, and I really could have added more on, but if I add too much, you might not read anymore. I was really happy about the response to the last chapter, and I'm hoping I get more on this one as well. I love you guys for reading and commenting and voting the way you have been. So, comment and vote on this one too if you liked it!

-M xx