Behind a Smile

assessment partners?

After that interesting conversation with my Cam it gave me a lot to think about  my ex is looking for me and I'm yet to confront that whole situation. I'm avoiding things and it's going to bite me in my ass.

I decided to get up and get dressed for school and life doesn't wait for anyone. I decided to wear a sweat shirt and black ripped jeans with old school vans the perfect lazy day outfit and I put my obviously overly exaggerated long hair in a ponytail, I think it's time for a haircut new hairstyle right.

Enough day dreaming time for class. I got to my class early with ten minutes to spare time so I decided to read a book called the big brother package. Lost in the story and blocked out every sense of reality I suddenly felt a presence besides me. Is that someone clearing their throats or am I hearing things

"Ehm Ehm Emma " said a strangely familiar voice so I decided to see who this human is that has the nerve to disturb my reading time and it's no other

"Jeff h..Hi" did I seriously stutter what is wrong with me you haven't seen him in 3 days and making a fool of yourself is the best option really Em

"I haven't seen you since our date" he said

" I thought I told you it wasn't a date " can I get more indenial more than normal like really not a date I just called it a date ughhhh I'm such a idiot

"it was to me so I wondering if I could get that second date we spoke about "he said while scratching his head.. His shirt rolled up and I can see his  muscles silently freak out and fan girl

"erm sure just tell me when and..." ring ring.. the bell rang before I could finish my sentence I guess class is starting

"I'll talk to you after class meet me at the coffee shop" before I could protest he already made his way to his seat ugh let's get this hour over with

And the class dragged on and none of my friends in sight great just what I needed a whole hour without my best friends and a coffee demand with Jeff can this day get any worse

Looking around I see Matthew picking his nose and bad girl Jessica scratching her ear disgusting on another level ugh it's funny how I know everyone's name and they don't know mine loser on another level

Some where along the lines of judging myself and bringing down my non-existant confidence I heard sir Williams talk about a new project that only needs two people in a group and just like every student alive I hoped he would say we could choose our own partners

But just like that thought came it vanished when he said "I've already asighned you partners " and all the ughs and dissapointed sighs were heard around class . I swear this man is the devil himself. He read out the names of people who are asighned together I zoned out when he read the first name.

"and the Two last partners are Emma and Jeff, I'll email you your assignments before the end of class it's due in three weeks time I'm not expecting it any later than that " could that man get anymore annoying and I'm signed up with Jeff this is not what I need but choices in this class are never a option.

The class dragged on this hour felt longer than needed. Finally the bell rang and I got my email I guess now I should go to the coffee shop and see what this man/boy wants.

Packed my bags shoved everything in my pencil case and got ready to leave. I made my way to the shop it looks busy today so I'd probably wait long for a table and decent a coffee. "Ding" chimed the bell above the door signaling a new customer has arrived I made my way to the front desk while taking in the wonderful coffee smell mixed with the different pastries and cake aromours . This smell could never get old to me I would inhale it everyday. The hardest part of this whole experience begins with talking to the barrister it seems easy to everyone else but to me not so much my social anxiety and awkwardness tends to make communication with humans difficult.