berkley (the night before)
i helped percy get ready for bed, and turned on the baby monitor. since my mom and dad went out, i had to make sure baby moana was okay tonight. i washed percy's hair, washed his feet, and slipped his pants onto him. "berkley? a-am i a burden? some-me-t-t-t-times I f-feel like a bu-burden. i real-l-ly d-don't mean-n to be. i also fe-feel like i'm anno-y-ying. am i a-annoying?" he asked, choking on his tears. "oh perc, you're not any of those things. mom and dad and moana and I all love you very much and there was no way you could've prevented the accident." i soothed, hugging him.
last year, percy was on the bus on his was home from school, when a motorcycle ran in front of it, causing it to swerve and hit a pole. The bus landed on its side and the glass from the window had pierced his legs deeply. i was on that bus...i walked away with a few cuts.
once i got percy in bed, i went to check on moana. i walked into her room with a bottle and her favorite teddy bear. "hi moana," i smiled. her eyes lit up and she gave me a gummy smile. i reached my hand into the crib, and she wrapped her hand around my ring finger. i picked her up and fed her with her winnie the pooh bottle.
sometimes i feel like i take care of my siblings more than my parents do. they're always out or always doing something. thanksgiving and christmas. they don't even acknowledge out birthdays.
after moana falls asleep, I put her in her crib. i laid on the couch and called a.j. i didn't get through and left her messages.
(that morning)
cameron
i looked at the girl while she watched matt slave away in the kitchen. she was really pretty. i recognize her from yesterday...but i really had my eye on her friend. she was adorable with her sweater paws and flower crown. i walked up to the girl. "hey, i remember you from yesterday. what's your name?" i asked. "a-a.j." she said quietly. "what does it stand for?" "alexa jane." "that's pretty. i'm sorry about yesterday, y'know, with taylor and such--" "no no no it's fine. don't worry about it. i'm gonna step outisde." she said, getting up from her seat. I watched her walk outside. she lit a cig, inhaled, and blew out grey swirls into the wind.
i looked away and at hayes. i think hayes has]d just been the center of everyone's attention lately. he'd been acting so different and it's throwing everyone off. nash was so freakin confused when he walked in on hayes with cat ears on. hayes had just finished his flower crown and had just put it on his head. he looked so happy. and i mean i was happy for him, but i was still confused as to what was going on with him.
hayes
everyone looked at me strangely. i got a lot of weird looks from my friends, my teachers had talked about me in their meetings, and my brother distanced himself away...it hurt my feelings. the fact that they couldn't just come up to me and ask what's up. it was sickening.
carter
i had gone out for dunkin donuts. on my way back, i saw the girl from 7eleven. not the tall one, the short adorable one. she was wearing a periwinkle sweater (with sweaterpaws), black leggings, and ugg boots. she looked adorable. "hey." i said. she looked startled, but then relaxed. "oh hi." she smiled. "didn't mean to scare you sweetheart. name's carter. and yours?" "berkley." "mmm berkley. i like it."
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questions:
who do you ship--
berkley & carter?
berkley & cameron?
a.j. and jack g.?
a.j. & nash?
a.j. & cameron?
ALSO:
what do you think is up w/ hayes?
