"hey how do you feel about meeting my band mates tonight" Jonah asks me as we watch some T.V
"umm i don't know. i mean i technically already did"
"not physically"
"i mean i saw their faces isn't that enough"
"not at all. please they really want to meet you"
"but why tonight. i'm finally home and i just want to relax"
"it's the only time they can"
"ugh but jonah i haven't been home in so long i don't want to leave it"
"they can come here"
"i'm really tired"
"you can nap when they leave"
"jonah i'm saying no."
"well i already invited them"
"ughhhh fine. i'm hungry can you get me a snack"
"sure"
jonah leaves the couch and comes back with a snack
he hands it to me but i grab his hand and make him fall onto the couch with me
"woah"
"sorry i wanted a kiss and a hug"
"you could've just asked" he laughs
he positions himself comfortably over me and kisses me
"i love you jonah"
"i love you too"
"do you want to be with me forever be honest" i ask looking up into his eyes
"of course i do why wouldn't I"
"i don't know i just think about that sometimes"
"well i really do want to. in fact it's my plan to be with you forever and get married and have kids and then watch them grow up and have their own kids and maybe if we live longer than that see their kids have kids."
"what if we can't have kids"
"we've already talked through this. if we can't which i don't see why we wouldn't cause your legs are paralyzed not your baby making area, we still will be able to adopt or use one of those people the kardashians use"
"surrogate"
"yeah that. we have countless amount of options."
"we could have you impregnate Tate and then she has the baby but we take it from her"
"but then i would have to fuck Tate"
"oh yeah don't do that. anyways i love you so much and i hope one day you'll ask me to marry you"
"i'm waiting for the perfect moment"
"whens that"
"i'm not sure yet but when i know i'll know"
"i can't wait for you to know"
"me too. we have an hour before the boys come do you want to try something"
"i don't know Jonah. i'm kinda nervous"
"why you won't feel it"
"exactly. i'll see you enjoying it and i'll feel bad that i can't do anything to show how i'm feeling."
"baby it will be fine. i promise you my feelings won't be hurt if you don't make any noise"
"are you sure?"
"1000 percent"
"okay fine but if afterwards you're mad at me don't say i never told you what was going to happen"
"so yes"
"yes"
"perfect" he says smirking
before i know it i'm being pulled from the couch and brought upstairs by jonah
i squeal as he throws me on the bed sexily
he takes off his shirt and gives me the sexiest smile
"i wanna see you Camryn, all of you" he says and i quickly take off my shirt
i start to remove my pants until i realize something which ruins the mood
"i can't take off my pants" i whisper to myself a tear rolling down my eye
"woah woah woah baby why are you crying"
"i can't take off my pants" i say louder and he sighs softly
he walks over to me and sits on the bed, pulling me up to him into a hug
i cry into his chest and he rubs my back
"i-i'm sorry jonah i really wanted to for you"
"shh it's okay don't cry."
"i feel bad. wait you can do it. i mean why not"
"no no today has been a lot"
"but you really wanted to"
"babe don't worry about what i want youre finally home from the hospital and you should be resting not about to do all of this"
"i'm sorry"
"don't apologize you know what i'll tell the boys not to come. it's your first night back and you're going to rest okay"
"okay i love you"
"i love you too. are you tired?" he asks and i nod
"alright well let's nap then"
"yay i love sleeping with you. i actually feel your arms around me"
"i'm happy you feel secure. now come on i'm exhausted"
