Sex and love, anger and pride [mxm] [✔]

Chapter 3

Wei took his phone and wrote a quick reply.
>What about tonight? I can't wait till tomorrow.

Yunlan had waited anxiously for his text, and reading it he felt his heart jumping in his chest.
>I'll be home. You know the way.

Yunlan looked at his clock, three more hours and he could get out of there.

He felt so excited he couldn't rest, he buried himself in his work to make the time go by faster, and this time it was productive. He found new energy and new interest in what he was doing, knowing that that night he would have seen Shen Wei and would have been in his arms again, completely at his mercy.

It had been difficult to accept at first, but now he craved to be ravished by Wei's passion.

He chuckled at this new self, he had always gone forward crashing any obstacle in his way, and now what? Had he become submissive?
This sudden thought caught all of his attention for a while, while he tried to think at what he would have wanted or could have accepted.

He knew nothing of Wei, only that he was sexy as hell. What if he ever asked him to do something strange?
And what exactly could 'something strange' mean?

He made a mental note to do some research on the matter and concentrated on his work until it was time to go home.

He called a taxi because he was too restless to sit and wait for a bus. As soon as he reached home though he found himself in doubt. At what hour would Wei be here? Was he supposed to eat first and meet him later, or would have been more polite to wait for him and offer him something?

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Shen Wei looked at the hour, it was still early to go to Yunlan's house, but he was still in his work outfit. He needed to go change and take a shower.

"Come here boy."

Hearing those words Wei's heart sank, what did he want now? He hoped it would be something quick, and he hurried to hear his demands.

"What took you so long? Listen, I need you to work at the pub tonight, get ready to leave, you start in thirty minutes."

"Tonight?" He wouldn't be able to see Yunlan, it felt like such a blow that he wanted to scream.

"Something wrong with your ears? What did I just say?"

He wanted to say something but he bit his lip instead to keep any word from coming out.

"Why are you still here? Did you hit your head, you're dumber than usual."

"Sorry sir, I will go immediately," he replied. There was really nothing he could do now. His night had been ruined.

He should have called Yunlan to let him know, but he couldn't bring himself to do it just yet. This way he could pretend a little longer.

He looked at the clock now with totally different feelings.
He rushed out and reached the pub in twenty minutes. He could still call Yunlan, at least he would hear his voice.

He stopped, his hand on the door handle, realising what he just thought, and laughed at himself. What was that? They weren't a couple, they only had sex once and knew nothing about each other!

And it had to stay that way, he thought, there was no need for Yunlan to know about his life, they were just strangers who had sex. Just strangers, that was it, they both knew it and they were both ok with it.

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His phone beeped. Yunlan looked at the clock, then took his phone and read the text.
>Can't make it tonight. Sorry. I'll call you.

He stared at it, such a cold message, did something happen? Did Wei change his mind?
Well, at this point there was no reason to wait, he made himself something to eat - which meant that he warmed up some instant food he had in the house - and sat at the small kitchen island.
He ate slowly, lost in thought, and as he finished he went to get his computer.

He wrote 'submissive dominant relationship' on the search engine bar, and took a look.
His eyes widened, there was a lot of stuff he had never thought of.

He frowned at the description of humiliating activities that some people enjoyed, that definitely wasn't for him.
There was a mention of many many 'toys' but Yunlan frowned again; gags, rings, plugs, Yunlan made a horrified face, 'not on me, no!', blindfolds, and Yunlan looked horrified again, 'not being able to look at that body? Are they crazy?'; handcuffs or ropes, and Yunlan thought of being unable to move, to touch, completely at Wei's mercy... for him to do whatever he wanted with him... touch him and kiss him as much as he wanted... he clicked and read on, some people used actual handcuffs or ropes at the wrists and ankles, but anything could be used, apparently a common thing was to use one's own tie to restrain both wrists together... the mental image of an elegant Shen Wei undressing before him and using his tie that way... Yunlan groaned, that wasn't such an unpleasant thought after all.

He spent a lot of time scrolling down the page, and he reached the conclusion that there wasn't much of that stuff that he wanted or was even willing to try.
If Wei ever suggested those things, he would have to put up some clear boundaries.

Yunlan thought of Wei's text; he realised that in his thoughts there were already many future encounters, during that time he had never thought 'if we meet again', how could he be so sure?

Yes, Wei had left him his number, but that didn't necessairly mean anything.

He looked at the text again. This time he had said that he would call... was it just a way to tell him that he had no intention of ever seeing him again? It happened, he had heard a lot about it, with both hetero- and homo- sexual relationships, sometimes one of the two partners just wasn't all that interested, but instead of saying it clearly and face a reaction, they said 'I'll call you', knowing they wouldn't.

The other one was left hanging by the phone, waiting for a call that would never arrive.

Was that also what Wei meant?
He wished so much to see him again that it was ridiculous, after only one night Wei had already taken residence in his heart and thoughts.

He really hoped that Wei would call him.