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☆ yeosang - letting go

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sighing, you get out of the unfamiliar bed putting on your clothes. taking a last glance at the unknown man, you knew this was the only way you had to do it.

you couldn't bear to lie to yeosang, you knew you had to make such a mistake as proof. leaving your one night stand, you walk down the empty streets.

the moon shining brightly was the only light. your heart broke at what you saw coming, even though you had prepared for this for such a long time. you knew a time like this would approach, despite the days you wanted to stay- you knew, letting yeosang go was the only way you could make him genuinely happy.

you clutch onto your purse, holding your tears in. but it eventually brimmed at your eyes, and started to pour down your cheeks.

sobs leaving your mouth, if anyone was watching they'd probably think you were crazy. the heels clicked against the pavement as you walked towards the bus stop which was nearby.

eventually reaching there, your sobs were too hard to control you covered your mouth, inaudible sounds escaping.

the pain was too unbearable. you couldn't leave, you knew you were too weak to do that, because you'll always run back to him. you couldn't tell him either knowing it'll break you worse than him.

you had to create a mistake you never wanted to. you wanted him to hate you, you wanted him to leave you. you wanted him to realise you were never enough. you wanted him to realise you were holding him back from being happy. you were so helpless- hopeless, useless.

you had to get yourself together and prepare yourself for the worser heartbreak, you ordered an Uber and eventually got home.

standing infront of the door, you had second thoughts. you were regretting if you hadn't done this, you could have just told him that he deserved better. before you could, leave the door opens revealing a very worried yeosang.

he engulfs you in a hug without saying anything, and your heart just broke. he really deserves better.

"oh my god, I was so worried" he breathes out, looking at you as he pulled away.

"(y/n)- were you crying" he asks, pulling you inside, grabbing a hold of your hands. "bab-"

"yeosang" you croaked out, trying to sound as mean as possible, you take your hands from him.

"are you okay? did I hurt you?" he asks, making you look away before you give in, but you out his peace and happiness before yourself.

"i-"

"what's that?" he asks, looking at you. you got confused trying to figure out what until you realized he was staring at your neck.

the purple marks. the hickeys.

"look-" he cuts you off immediately, "what the fuck. can you explain this" he yells, all of a sudden making chills run down your spine.

unable to find words of how to tell him, you just look at him completely guilty in disgust of yourself.

"(y/n) speak! it isn't going to speak for itself! fucking explain !"

"I made a mistake" you say, your voice almost inaudible, yeosang stares at you with rage. "oh my god" he puts his face on his hands, yelling with anger.

"did you sleep with another man?" before you could explain, his tears start falling.

"was I not enough? did you fall out of love for me? do you not love me anymore? (y/n) answer me for god sake!" he yells, shaking you like crazy making you cry.

"I fucked up I know!" you yell in frustration, breaking down badly. "okay I fucking know! its not because I don't love you anymore, I fucking love you. I really do!" you scream, falling down to your knees, looking up at yeosang your view being completely glossy.

"you don't hurt the people you love (y/n)!" feeling so speechless, you remained silent just letting the tears fall and the sobs leaving your mouth.

"you know what?" he says, as he wipes his tears- he walks through the hallways and disappearing before he walks out, with his stuffs.

"I'm not going to do this. I really cant forgive you (y/n)" he says, putting on his coat. "it's best if we end this here, because I'm not willing to go on with a cheater" he says, more tears brimming around his puffy eyes. he walks over to door, taking a last look at you before he leaves.

"you couldn't even bother to stop me, wow (y/n)" he says, a tear leaving his right eye. he pauses for a moment before he completely leaves you.

"happy 2nd anniversary (y/n)"

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the anGST IN THIS. originally I wrote a fluff, like it was so wholesome ngl until wattpad crashed and my work went missing into thin air. so I ended re-writing but, instead of the fluff, I wrote this angst. maybe someday the fluff will be uploaded if I write it all over again. maybe someday, maybe. either way I hope you enjoyed this ✌🏼