Together. (Bellarke one shots)

On The Ring.

I want to shout out to Depressed_potato for this idea!
            
*Bellamys time on the
Ring*

Bellamy looking out the window with paper and pencil in his hands, watching Primfiya destroy earth.

Bellamy lets a few tears escape and before he knows it he starts sobbing.

He slings the paper out of his lap and stands up.

"Bellamy" Raven says in a soft voice.

"I left her behind and for what, to live in space with a grounder, two love birds that will only remind me of her, a couple that will probably only last a year (Emori and Murphy)." Bellamy cries.

Ravens taken aback. "Me?"

"Your ok but the rest of them, don't get me wrong Monty, Harper, Murphy their my family including you its just that."

Bellamys stuck. He let his anger get the best of him.

He walks away desperately wanting to leave this conversation.

Raven walks over to the paper laying on the floor.

Day 1
Dear Clarke,
I know your never going to read this, but i need a way to escape. To tell you i'm sorry for leaving, to tell you that.. i love you.

A tear rolls down Ravens cheek. It doesn't take a genius see that he loves her but seeing Bellamy so vulnerable and broken breaks her heart.

Raven puts the letter in her pocket and walks back to the control room.

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Day 2
Dear Clarke,
Yesterday i was a mess, today? I am a bigger mess. I can feel myself slowly slipping away into nothing.

You were my rock, My compass when i was lost. You showed me new things like how to be better.

Without you i am the same monster i was when we first landed...or maybe i have always been.

Life here 'without you' is blurred, you were my glasses that helped me see the better in me and the world but now your gone and it's my fault.

I love you Clarke.

Bellamy laid in his bed soaking in his sorrows.

"Bellamy why are doing this to yourself" He hadn't noticed Raven standing at the door.

"She dead because of me" is all he says.

"Bellamy i WILL NOT stand here and watch you throw your life away." Raven yells.

"Then go back to the control room" Murphy says walking by.

"Shut up Murphy" Bellamy's voice is deep and threatening.

"Bellamy i read that 'letter'. How long are you going to torture yourself before you realize she wanted this. She wanted to save us. She wouldn't have wanted us to wait." Raven throws the letter on the bed and walks out.

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Day 42
Dear Clarke,
We are still trying to get the radio working so we can contact the bunker. Or you if your alive.

Raven is mad at me. Why? I think it's because I blame and beat myself up for you death but I loved you...Correction Love you.

Bellamy drags himself to the table and sits down.