NEW GIRL ✔

chpt. 19- ⚠ counting days⚠

~~KHALANIS POV~~

1 month 4 days....

It's been a month since I last saw Billie. Since I knew she was safe. I'm not giving up on her. I haven't I can't. I wont.
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2 months ....

Afanias told me to stop that maybe she's gone and that I would have to move on.....but I can't. I- I think i l- nevermind.

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3 months ....

I'm starting to lose hope in ever seeing her again. I stopped crying myself to sleep at night. My eyebags are slowly starting to fade and her memory, her face, her scent.... It's starting to fade away...... But I have to hold onto what I have left. I'm losing her. I- I can't lose her.

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6 months...

I'm at 7, 9, 10 months... or was it 4.......
.....maybe 5. I'm losing my shit. I had been losing my shit. I can see her. Everywhere, but I can't touch her. I thought I saw her at an event during the weekend. But it wasn't her. That girl dressed differently. Her clothes hugged all her curves and she had silver hair. But her face looked almost like an exact replica of my Billie. Or maybe it was the liquor I had drank. But I swear to god it was her. I want it to had been her.

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"We need you in the conference room in 10" Afanias told me. I was zoned out looking at the tv. It was turned off.

"Did you hear me?"

"Uh yeah conference room in 10" I mumbled back not taking my eyes off the black screen.

"You need to stop thinking about the girl you thought you saw that looked like you-know-who because no one else saw her"

"But I swear I saw her, I know I saw her! I want to see her. I had to have seen her. "

"You said it yourself you wanted to see her but it wasn't her. You were getting better and you just relapsed after the episode. The gang needs you and you need them. You're eachothers back bones. You need to start acting like one"

"I know. Okay fine, I'll try to forget about her. And I'll be down in a sec." I told him and he left the room.

I had this on with my necklace that said bitch.