| Just Saying Hi |

Just Saying Hi | Heyyy with 3 y's

Well hello I'm gonna go because I'm not sure if im a friend or foe? do you know? Okay i suck at poems so yeah here's a new chapter because i promised.

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I looked out my window watching the 2 lovebirds have a make-out session and by 2 the birds I mean Caspar and kristina. It makes me a bit uncomfortable just watching, I was told to wait for them up in my room, Caspar told Kristina about the kissing thing that happend yeasterday.

I can tell she took it better than expected, she wasn't ranting about being un-loyal even though he wasn't exactly, She just smiled and nodded. At times I get jelous of how good she is she's like cold lemonade on a hot summer day, and i'm the anoying ass fucking lego that you step on without noticing. AND IT HURTS MAN!.

I forgot to tell you! I'm working on a song. I'm not sure when I'm gonna sing it, or if i'm gonna sing it to someone. But I can assure you that one day i'm going to the pub to sing it.

It's called 'photograph' and I haven't really got any ideas, but i'm halfway through the song and I wrote it for Caspar, mostly because he loves to use his camera. And it has a bunch of pictures of us taking silly selfies.

He often prints them and he frames them. The frames are amazing. They're simple but thay have this pattern, they're like lenses to the picture.

But i'm mostly writting this because it's almost Caspars birthday....In 2 months, and he's turning 18. But it's okay to write an early birthday song, plus I have'nt had any good inspiration to even continue the song.

So I have been going out lately. out to the park and to the hostpital with Caspar. Me and him went out to dinner.... but with Kristina of course or it would've been awkward.

And, as funny as it sounds I feel like me and Caspars bond has been slowly drifting, I feel like he doesn't want to be around me all the time, and that he would rather be with Kristina. He yelled at me once for interupting him while he was on the phone talking to Kristina.

But as sweet as Kristina is I heard her yelling at Caspar on the other line about treating me with respect.

That night Caspar took me to the park for a walk, and he apoligized. He bought me a bracelet with a charm on it. And we hugged, like real friends. He promised to spend more time with me, and that he would try to yell less, that he's just been stressed lately. 

And I understood, I knew that it was about his mom. And I knew that he just needed some sapce, so I told him he didn't need to make any time for me and that time was made for him to use wisely not forcefully.

And he smiled, And I smiled. It was the best night i've ever had.

A soft knock at my door knocks me out of thought I turn and see Caspar at the door which is weird because I thought he was downstairs. I guess I was out for long. 

"Hey" Caspar says smilling at me. "By your expression and your make-out session downstairs, she took it well?" 

His cheeks turn crimson as he takes a seat next to me. "Yes actually, but the doctor called me a while ago, and he says that my mom is doing good, she might wake up any day now." He says calmly.

"Are you shitting me! that's good to hear!" I say tears welling up in my eyes, I turn away wiping some away. It surprised me and again made my heart swell.

"Yeah I know it's not as good of news as if I was told she actually woke up but it still makes a great impact." I smile at him watching as he begins to speak of his mother and of Kristina.

I notice how wrinkles apear on the side of his eye when he smiles. The spark in his eyes glowing like fireflies in the dark. how his lips curl all the way up, exposing his pearly white teeth.