Everything I Wanted (Kam)

3-Tam

hiiiiiii!

yes. im still writing. its too addicting helpppppp

I also may be basing Tam a bit off of me...

anyhow, onward!

"Linh, can we please listen to my music for once?" I ask. This whole drive, she's been listening to really up-beat pop. I only like musicals, and emo bands. Especially Phantom of the Opera and Twenty One Pilots. 

"Tam, driver picks the music. So we're listening to this!!" She continues to play S.L.U.T by Bea Miller. I sigh. "Up-beat pop is trash though! We need bands like My Chemical Romance, Panic! At The Disco and Linkin Park!" She laughs. "I mostly listen to these songs to annoy you, but at the same time I'm more of a happy person myself." I roll my eyes. "How are you so happy?" I ask. She shrugs. "I'm not sure. I just think of happy things that have happened before, and tell myself to feel that again. I also rant to Wylie, every now and then Tiergan and Prentice, so I don't deal with it alone." I look at her. "Why don't you ever talk to me?" I ask. She sighs. "You're clearly going through things that you won't tell anyone about, and I don't want to bother you with my problems as well."

"Linh, I'll always be here for you." I say, putting an arm on her shoulder. She smiles. "I just wish you would realize I am too." She whispers. I retract my hand, and look out the window at the trees.

The bright evening sun is fading, and the sky going to a beautiful pink, orange, purple and blue ombre, with stars peeking out.

"Oh, I hope you don't mind that on Christmas Eve, I'm inviting my friends over for a sleepover. We're also celebrating Christmas with them." She said, right as we pulled up to the driveway. "Why though?" I ask. She shrugs. "I thought it might be fun. And yes, you have to be a good Tammy and stay with us. It's my Christmas wish, technically." She winks, and I huff.

"Come on Tammy, it'll be fun! Please don't stay in your room!" She whines. I sigh. "Okay, fine. I'll try." I mumble. She smiles. "Oh yeah, you're going to love your Christmas present!!" She says, grabbing her baby blue backpack. I smile. "Good, cause you'll love yours as well."

Linh has wanted a cat for years now. I finally saved up enough from past birthdays, and Christmas's to buy one for her. I did have to ask Tiergan for $5, but that's it.

She smiles softly. "You already know I will." She looks me in the eye. "Tomorrow, we're going shopping and getting you a Christmas sweater though." I roll my eyes. "Ugh, fine." I see her smirk at my response, and we walk inside.

"Hey Tam! Hey Linh!" Tiergan calls from the kitchen. I can smell the sticky cheese all the way at the door. (a/n sticky cheese is just my family's foncy word for a mac n cheese variation) 

"Where are Prentice and Wylie?" Linh asks, slightly blushing at Wylie's name. I finish putting my coat on the rack, and walk into the dining room, taking my phone out. 

I look on my Instagram-it's _bangs.boy_ so only Linh would recognize it- and look at Keefe's newest post.

It's a picture of some drawings, but...they look a lot like me.

The caption is: Finally got a new client! Ha, these were the thumbnails I did! Good or bad?

Of course, I comment the usual, 'YOU'RE TOO TALENTED AHHH!!'

And see if I get a response for once. He's very popular, with 2k+ followers.

"Tam! Come here!" Linh calls. I run into her room, where she's looking through my sketchbooks.

"Linh! What the heck?!" I shout, running over to grab them. I throw them into her closet, and throw myself in there as well.

"Tam, I just wanted to see your drawings, that's all...I swear..." She said, looking out the window. 

I can just barely see her from the crack between the doors. "But all my secrets are in there, Linh...now you know what I've been hiding for forever..." I curl up, and stare at my feet. 

"Tam...why didn't you tell me you're gay? And that you like one of my friends?" She asks me. I keep silently crying. "I was going to tell you on Christmas, Linh. I'm so sorry..." I curl up even smaller, wishing I could turn invisible.

She opens the closet door, and smiles. "Come on, time to come out to me." A smile tugs at my lips. "Fine." I get up, and run into her open arms.

She lets me rant to her, and cry about everything that has been going on. 

"Hey, if you need to talk about anything else, I'm here." Linh said, walking over to her room. I smile, and whisper, "I am too." And we close our doors, and go to bed.

le next day...

REEEP! REEEP! My alarm clock screams.

I immediately turn it off, and jump out of bed. I decide to put on the darkest clothes possible, to make sure I'm not noticeable. 

I run outside to Linh, and I get into the car.

"So, you going to sit with us today?" She asks. I nod slowly. "I guess. But only for you." She smiles. "For that, go ahead and play what you want." She points to the radio, and I smile, turning on my favorite playlist.

It starts with Show & Tell by melanie martinez.

"Okay, why the depressing lyrics with such a happy sounding song?" She asks. I shrug. "I dunno. But that's why I like it." She laughs.

Of course Thnks Fr Th Mmrs starts playing right as school starts.

"Okay," Linh begins to tell me, "after school, we're getting you your Christmas sweater." I sigh. "Ugh, why?" "I already told you, you're staying for my Christmas party!" Linh answers, excitedly. I sigh. "Fine. But only if you go to school with all black someday." She shakes my hand, and shouts "deal!"

they magically walk in cause I'm lazy...

*Lunch time*

"Hey Tammy Boy, nice to know you're back!" Keefe tells me, putting an arm on my shoulders. Linh snickers. I begin blushing, hoping he doesn't notice. "Y-yeah...just spending more and more time with the crackheads..." I mumble. He laughs his cute little laugh, and we start eating.

i'm still lazy so here we go...

"Linh, this better not take a million years." I say, pouting. She giggles. "If you cooperate, it won't. I promise. Now, lets go find you a sweater!"

1 hour later...

Linh gave me a Christmas sweater that reads 'Jolly AF'.

"It works so well for you! Now, you are going to wear this, or I put a Christmas dress on you, got it?" She says, narrowing her eyes. My eyes widen, and I nod. She giggles.

"Lets go home now."

I'M FINALLY DONE rEEEEEEEEEE!!!

also excuse my laziness, i just needed to get this out

merry christmas from the keeper gang and I!! (or other holidays)

stay salty, stay fresh, and i'll see y'all next update!

~Lyv