Until we meet again

Innocent questions

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Maria's Pov

It's been four years since I lost my whole family to the earthquake. Everything I had back home gone in a flash. The pain I felt after that catastrophic event was unbearable, it wounded me deeply inside. It tore something in me, something that no amount of love or care could ever mend. I didn't think I could go on with that much sorrow.

Like you ever had that pain that was so suffocating that you wished it killed you already because you just couldn't scream it out of you. Yeah, that was the pain. I battled with it day and night all these years. But through that pain, i had my beloved brother, my best friend and all I had left.

My life wasn't completely clear of the shadows that followed me to the Bahamas, but Jacob was always there . We were family, he understood how i felt. He helped me stand when fear crippled me to my knees and rekindled a little happiness in me again. But just when that happiness began to bloom it was plucked out of existence . Just when I thought that I can be whole and well again, he was snatched away by the inevitable hands of death just like the rest of them.

Now i lie down alone on my bed, looking up to the ceiling as the tears pick at my tear ducts. I let them break free, flowing over the dried streaks from last nights crying session. The nightmares got much worst now since Jacob died . All I was met with when I woke up this morning was the familiar darkness and empty sheets that have become my daily companion. He was no longer there to console or hug me to sleep. No more silly games or stale jokes. No more good times at the beach with his friends the following day. Those golden moments were nothing but bittersweet memories now.

Folding my lips into my mouth, I turn my head to look at the draw cabinet next to my bed. Sadly, there was no breakfast or vitamins there, only a dusty lamp and notebooks. I smile as sweet images of him resting a  breakfast platter there every morning flashes in my head. That too was just another memory that added to the palpable brokenness i felt when i recall all that has happened. It's been two years since he's been gone but the pain still feels so fresh.

You ever felt so pained that you went numb, like you're not sure what to feel about anything anymore.The feeling is strange and I don't know if the correct words to clearly express how i feel even exist. The vulnerability and brokenness I feel to this day is just out of this universe. But I've been holding things together as best as I can , at least that's what Jacob would want me to do anyway.

Sighing heavily, I wipe away the tears with the pads of my fingers and toss the sheets aside to get up. Not forgetting to grab my phone from under my pillow,I make my way to my bathroom to get ready for today. I tried to suppress the bubbling excitement and anxiety I felt inside but couldn't help but smile. I was going to see Zane again. He actually wanted me to go by his house. If Jacob was still alive he probably would've freak out from excitement. I couldn't stop the laughter that bubbled out of me just imagining his face.

Squeezing some toothpaste on my toothbrush, I turn on the water in the sink to wet it before I start brushing my teeth. While doing so I turn on my phone to look at the time. It is now 9:15am. Resting the phone on the side of the sink I continue to brush my teeth.

The couple that are currently staying here with me are probably to work already. They were former friends of Jacob.  Before he passed he agreed to let them move in to the extra room just as long they help pay the bill. But before they moved in Jacob passed. Matthew knowing the couple very well helped them to move in. I helped as well but didn't mingle with them too much. We lived in the same house but that doesn't make us friends.