Dear Karan

Chapter Four

PAST
18th April, 1998

Sakshi's Journal

Dear Diary,

Today, I finally forced myself to meet Karan and apologise. I felt so ashamed for reacting harshly when he was just trying to help me. Whenever I found him amidst a crowd, I ducked away and scurried off in another direction. I decided that I had to make peace with him, so I went to his usual hangout place where he was with his three friends.

Karan was startled to see me. It was clear on his face. He looked a bit flustered when I apologised to him and he simply brushed it away, saying that he understood my pain and that I was not wrong for snapping at him. In return, he apologised for interfering in my personal life. Gosh! I felt like a pathetic idiot. He was such a sweet guy and even though he had the chance to be smug about accepting my apology, he blamed himself for my outburst.

Is that how boys are supposed to be? Parth was always cocky and stubborn during all those times I tried to apologise. Even for the ones that I was not at fault. However, I don't care because these stupid fights happen always. That's what makes the bond stronger. Infact, where there is love, there is pain. And I don't care if I have to stoop down low to apologise. I love him and I am afraid of loosing him. If a simple five lettered word is all it takes for us to stay together, then I will say it for a thousand times.

But then...the way Karan replied for my apology...and took the entire responsibility into his own hands...why did it feel like I was pulled out from the water and saved me from drowning further away....and that I was on the shore and finally able to breathe??