I Am Yours & You Are Mine {Taekook FF}

31 - Time alone

The house was still empty when the two returned.  Hands together, fingers intertwined, they had fallen silent again.  Once inside his room he made sure the door was locked.  Taehyung removed the hoody and walked to his side of the bed, crawling onto it he and moved to the middle.  Jungkook followed, tossing his hoody at the foot of the bed and moving next to his mate.  Resting his back against the headboard, Jungkook pulled Taehyung over to him.  With Taehyung's back against his chest, Jungkook wrapped his arms around the Omega's waist.  Burying his face into his Mates neck from behind, he inhaled deeply.  

"I missed having you close." 

Taehyung turned his head and nuzzled his nose against Jungkook's ear.  "I know."

"Jungkook?"

"Hmn?"

"Do you think I'm weird?"

"Totally."

"Hey! I'm serious."

"So am I.  I wasn't laughing when I answered you was I?" 

Taehyung rolled his eyes at him.  "I mean..." Taehyung's voice trailed off as he wasn't sure what to say.

"Hey, remember what Namjoon and Chin told us.  We need to talk, even if it was hard.  I have no clue what's going on in that pretty grey head of yours, so please, talk to me."  Jungkook was looking at his Mate lovingly.

"It's just, I've never been this close with someone before, It's...I'm scared.  Part of me wants to take things super slow while the other half wanted to screw you into oblivion hours ago.  I'm a mess Jungkook, one big confused mess."

Jungkook knew Taehyung was being serious, so he had to fight not to laugh.  "You're not a mess Taehyung, trust me."

"Yes, I am!  Don't say stuff just to make me feel better.  I already know I'm all kinds of fucked up.  It's been hard for me, to be with you, but I want to.  I don't know, ever since I recognized you as my Mate, all I want is to be with you.  It's weird to me because I don't really know you, but I feel like I do.  You make me feel safe." 

"Well thank you baby, but nothing I've said has been to make you feel better.  I've said it because I've meant it."

Taehyung blushed and hid his face into Jungkook's shoulder again.  "God, I'm babbling like a lovesick idiot again."  Taehyung took a couple of deep breaths.

"Jungkook?"

"Yeah babe?"

"I think my heat is going to start soon."

"Ok?  You want me to keep my distance?" Taehyung was struggling with giving him an answer and Jungkook could tell. "Tae?"  Taehyung turned to look at him.

"I'm sorry, will you? It's just, I'm not sure what will happen with me once it starts.  If things come up from... If memories come up,  I don't want you connected to any of that." Taehyung turned his head, slightly embarrassed.

"Hey, look at me baby."  Jungkook brought Taehyung's head around gently to look into those beautiful blue eyes.  "I already decided that when your first heat came, I would try to keep my distance.  I know what you've been through Tae.  Whatever you need me to do I will.  I just need you to tell me."  Tae wrapped his arms around his neck in a hug. 

"Thank you Kookie. It means a lot to me."  Taehyung laid back against him.  "I don't want our first time together to be when I'm in heat.  I want it to be just us, not my raging wolf hormones forcing me to.  I'd like to know what's happening and have some kind of control if I'm going to be screaming your name."