The Price We Pay

Hell Week

Jovita

This week is FINALLY here the beginning of Hell Week, I'm failing 2 of my classes, Frank and I are still cool and Aaron has been avoiding me but whatever, rumor has it that him and Andrea are going steady I'm not sure about it though.

Here it is 5am in the morning and we're lined up 'Okay ladies, welcome to hell week' the dean says 'You guys have came a long way but don't think it's over you can get drop at any point just remember that' she continues we was blindfolded

'Now take what I'm about to give you and don't do anything until I say so' we held our hands out and she placed an object in our hands

'Put the object in your pocket and keep  it with you at all times' she says and with that we heard footsteps walking away

I take my blindfold off and it was an onion 'This is fantastic' I say as the girls do the same thing 'Hey yall can I be real with yall for one sec' Jada says

'Yeah what's up' Isis says 'I'm thinking about dropping' Jada says

my heart literally stop beating

'Girl I know you're joking' I say but she shakes her head 'Nah like I'm deadass I can't keep doing this shit anymore' she says dropping the onion on the ground 'Jadaaaa this is hell week the last week please you already came so far' I said

'Did Marcus talk out of this as well' I asked and she sighs looking down 'Jo, I gotta go' and with that she walks away

Jada

Couple days ago, I've been avoiding Marcus only because he's going to ask why I have zero interest in meeting his mother. Truthfully speaking I'm afraid his mother isn't going to like me at all

I've been keeping myself locked in my room just catching up on homework, my phone has been on dnd all day. I ignored the group messages, facetimes, literally all of the above until I heard a knock on the door I went to open the door 'Of course you found me' I say sarcastically

'Jada why the hell have you been avoiding me' Marcus asked pissed off 'Don't feel like being bothered' I respond back 'Why because I wanted you to meet my mother' he ask

yes

'No it's not that' I lied

'Jada, baby listen if you want this relationship to work we're gonna have to communicate' he says 'I'm scared alright, what if your mom hates me, granted I don't even have a mother' I say crying

to my surprised Marcus hugs me 'I'm sorry that you have to go through all that baby, I wish I could carry the pain you have and it hurts more that the girls are bringing the pain on you' he says

'Only one more week and I'll be free' I say wiping my tears 'Baby are you sure you want to keep up with the process, you have bruises all over you and you know Lauren wants to fight you' he says making me shrug my shoulders

'Fuck her I don't care and at this moment I'm from philly all I do is fight and secondaly please don't go Aaron on me about dropping' I say walking towards my bed

'This Sunday I want you to attend church with me'

I just glance at him

'Be ready by 10' he said

'What about my probate' I ask him as he sighs 'Jada you want me to be honest with you baby' he ask

I nod 'Fuck them, I refuse to support them so no I will not be there' he says making me angry with him

'Why the fuck should I go to church with you then, damn where is my support' I ask walking up to him

'RIGHT HERE' he yells pointing at himself  'Jada I've been here with you the whole time from the minute I laid my eyes on you' he says calming himself down

'I really really like you Jada, baby I love you so much because you're unique, I want to know more about that girl from philly, I didn't even know you lost your mother because you keep things from me' I stood there silent at him

'I can't force you to do anything you want but Jada I've seen how this sorority shit plays out and it won't be good at the end, do what you want but I can't support that shit anymore alright' he says walking up to me

'But you guys have to be there' I said back to him

'Jada I denounce a week ago, I'm a changed man' and with that he walks out leaving me confused as hell

'Denounce' I say to myself  sitting on the bed why did he leave? That doesn't even make any type of sense like how do you just all of a sudden leave an organization you was once so desperate to join

Honestly speaking it sounded quite absurd I felt a vibration on my phone and looked

BE READY TONIGHT @ 10 don't be late

I just sat there on the bed trying to decided on what the fuck I was going to do

Continue to support my sisters and go through hell
Or
Leave and be with a man, who wants to really get to know me and wants me to meet his family

I sigh laying on the bed

Flashback

'GRANDMAAAA I GOT ACCEPTED' I yell throughout the house 

I just open my acceptance letter to HillCrest THEE BEST HBCU UNIVERSITY EVERRRR

'Ayeeee that's my baby you're mama would be so proud of you' she says giving me a hug 'I wanna follow in your footsteps Ma' I say as she smiles walking me to her living room

All throughout her living room was Alpha Beta paraphernalia blankets, rugs, her line jacket from the year 87'

'Ma those girls aren't going to accept me' I say 'And why is that baby' she asked 'Because I'm a girl raised in south philly, who got into endless amount of fights, and I'm basically ghetto'  she laughs

'Baby do you understand that you can be whatever you want in life, if you want to be an Alpha Beta then you will be, and nobody will stop you' she says

That whole night she went about what she did to become one and the process she went through. I promised her that when I come back I was going to be a changed women and make her proud

End of flashback

I laid here in silence. At this moment call me desperate, a hoe, stupid, whatever the case may be

I got up from my bed and headed to Marcus dorm literally banging on his door 'Yes Jada' he answers I stood there looking at the ground then back at him

'I'm ready to open myself up to you'