Kitten ( Namjoon x BTS)

34- Trapped Inside

[Namjoons pov]

I stirred, my body feeling sore and stiff, I tried to open my eyes but it felt as if they were glued shut.
Then I heard a voice. A calming one, one that I recognized, that spoke with such a soft and gentle tone. "Namjoon? Can you hear me? It's Jungkook"
I felt his hand in mine and I felt him squeeze it slightly, and then a sigh.

"Namjoon, baby, please wake up, please say something, please fight this, you're strong you can do this".

A minute afterwards I heard a sigh. Jungkook was rubbing my hand softly, but I almost knew he was crying.

I tried to talk, to scream, and it felt like I was but no sound came out, and I laid there, probably looking still on the hospital bed.

I heard a knock of a door and I wished I could turn my head or open my eyes or even just say something. Then I heard him, his normal cheeky, happy voice was sad, and dull. Taehyung. My silly yet kinky boyfriend.

"Hey Jungkook" he said, as if all the happiness in the world was gone.
"How's Jin hyung?" he asked, and I stirred again, wondering what was wrong with Jin hyungie.

"He's fine, he woke up and had a panic attack and tried to attack himself so the doctors gave him medicine to calm down and he's asleep now" Tae said.

Another sigh. "Tae.. Hyung.. I can't do this" Jungkook spoke and I felt like crying.

I heard shuffling and then tears, and I assumed the pair were hugging on the hard chair beside my bed.
"Tae hyung, what if, what if the worst happens" Jungkook mumbled, his voice breaking my heart.
"It won't, I promise baby" Taehyung mumbled back quietly, but luckily I could hear.

"Seriously, what if Jin never wakes up because he can't handle the idea of a life without Namjoon, Yoongi is depressed again and smoking, he hasn't done that since 2015 when he had bad depression and anxiety, Hoseok is our dominate sunshine, but now he either sits in Jin hyungs or Namjoons room, just staring at them, not doing or saying anything, Jimin isn't eating anymore, but yet he's hiding it, trying to be strong for everyone but we can see it, Tae you're trying you're best but I know you want to cry and scream and mess up something, and I...I feel dull, like there's nothing in me, like the devil stole my soul, and... and... What if Namjoon doesn't wake up" Jungkook said, and started crying during the middle of it.

"Bunny...." Taehyung said, his voice shattering.

"No Tae seriously, we did fine as a group of 6 of us and I love each and everyone of you so much and I know it's the same for everyone else, but I know for a fact, not one of us can live without Namjoon hyung, not one of us, if Namj... Nam... Namjoon goes, we go. It's like living without oxygen, without the sun, without a soul, there's no point in it, and he's dying Tae, he's actually dying... "

[Authors note : I had to stop here because it was 1am and I was crying my eyes out 😶]

[Authors POV] :

Everything was silent then, not even in a busy hospital, could anything be heard. Even in Jins room, everyone was silent, just sitting there, like dolls almost, just a body with no heart, no soul, no nothing....

Then he heard it, and he snapped his head up to look at Jungkook, but Jungkook wasn't making noise, he was quiet, left with no tears as he had ran out. Jungkook looked up at the noise too, and just like Taehyung was Jungkook was also surprised to see that his hyung was making no noise. Both of them slowly stood up and  turned to the only other left in the room, Kim Namjoon.

They inched closer and closer and sure enough, there was the source of the sound. Namjoon was crying in his coma, and just then his alarm started beeping.

[Taehyung pov] :

"Stay here, I'll get a doctor" I said quickly while I ran out into a hall, looking both up and down it, ignoring Yoongi, Hoseok and Jimin who was pushing Jin in a wheelchair. "Doctor, help" I screamed from outside of the room and in less than five seconds there were 2 doctors and a few nurses who ran into the room, along with the rest of my boyfriends, even Jin who had stood up out of the wheelchair out of the shock he had when he heard me scream.

We all stood quietly at the end of the bed, all holding each other while the nurses and doctors checks all the machines he was on, and did other checks.

"Doctor" Yoongi hyung spoke, shocking all of us as he barely spoke since the incident. "Is he okay?" he asked, his voice loud but shakey.

One of the doctors came over and smiled. "He can hear you boys, I think somebody must have been saying something which caused him to go into a mini shock and frighten him, causing his vitals to go alarmingly high"

Jungkook let out a cry before falling down to his knees, crying even more. "I mess everything up, I'm so sorry Namjoon baby, I'm the worst boyfriend ever, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry" he kept repeating, even shocking the doctor a little until Hoseok leant down and shushed him, letting him know it wasn't true.

It was just us and one of the doctors know and as his eyes went from Namjoon to all 6 of us dull men, he smiled.

"Ah, a poly relationship" he said, with a small smile on his lips. "How-" I began to ask but he held a hand up shushing me. "I was in one myself for a little while, and I could tell that you guys were a little more than friends, and the boyfriend word just gave it away" he said smiling.

We all nodded at him, thanking him from understanding, before Jimin everyso quietly asked if if Namjoon was okay.

"For now he is okay, but I am sorry to tell you all, that he is awake but he's trapped" the doctor said, trying to explain it to us.

"Wait, wait, wait, how?" Jin said, holding onto Jungkooks hand and squeezing it tightly.

"Kim Namjoon is basically trapped inside his own body, and I don't know if he will wake up from it and fight, or if he will die trapped. All we can do is wait"

[Word count - 1107]

Hey guys 💜

Just another little quick chapter, it's short enough for me because I was literally crying as I wrote it and I couldn't write anymore 😅😅

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