Kitten ( Namjoon x BTS)

33- Bucket List

[Jungkooks pov]

I watched as the ambulance drove away, and eventually it was out of sight but I still stared at where it had been, almost as if I wished to wake up so it would be a dream.
I was soon snapped to reality though when Yoongi hyung started sobbing and fell to his knees beside us.
Hoseok hyung crouched down and I could tell by his eyes that he was holding in the tears as he rubbed Yoongis back.

"It's all my fault Hobi" he whispered out but I'm pretty sure all of us heard.
"Hey, it is not your fault at all, you did what Namjoon wanted, you made him happy, he's just sick, it's not your fault" Hoseok hyung said, but it seemed as if he was shouting it at Yoongi.

"Hyung, will Namjoon be okay?" Taehyung asked, not really asking a particular hyung. Jimin answered though, with a little smile, "of course".
I watched as Jimin grabbed his left hand with his right, trying to get it to stop shaking as Taehyung sighed in relief and walked to me before hugging me. I hugged him back, not saying a word, just standing there.

Yoongi stood up, not bothering to wipe his tears like he normally did if he cried in front of us, he let his tears fall as he pulled his wrist out of Hoseoks grip and walked away.
"Hyung" Taehyung spoke, his voice shaking slightly and I held onto him tighter, getting flashbacks to the hard times Taehyung went though when his voice would often shake like so.

"Leave me alone for a while" Yoongi hyung said but his voice was so deep it sounded like a growl. Just like that, he was gone, not to his room though, he had grabbed the keys to one of our cars and had left though the front door, leaving the 4 of us standing there.

Taehyung immediately started crying, he was very emotional when it came to Namjoon and even sobbed in my arms for the night when Namjoon told us he had cancer. I sobbed with him of course, as we both cuddled together.

I hugged him tighter as Jimin tried to calm him down by rubbing his back and shushing him.

"Alright guys, let's go pack a bag for Namjoon and get to the hospital as soon as possible" Hoseok said as he grabbed our hands and pushed us in front of him.

Taehyung just sobbed even more when we were in Namjoons room but he still managed to help us pack some clothes and pjs and necessities for Joon, we also packed a few things for Jin as he left in such a hurry.

"Alright let's go" Hoseok said, and before we said anything else he was hurrying us out to the car and we were off.

[Jins POV]
I watched in shock as the ambulance men tried to shock Namjoon, apparently his heart had stopped and all I could do was hold his hand and let the tears fall.
He was connected to so many tubes and I could hear them mumbling about a lung transplant and a certain tube. I decided not to say anything for the time being and just hold his hand, praying for a miracle.

It seemed like hours before we reached the hospital when in reality it had been around 15 minutes, I couldn't help but try to stay with Namjoon as nurses and doctors surrounded him before pushing his trolley into a room. I went to enter but a nurse stopped me, and I wanted to ignore the huge sign beside me that said "Authorized personal only".
The two white doors shut in front of me and the last thing I could see was a tube going down Namjoons neck.

I couldn't help but to fall down to my knees, my hands on the doors, as if Namjoon was there. A few strangers were staring at me as there was a waiting room to my right, and 2 nurses came to me, patting my back and trying to stand me up, but all I could do was fall. Everything fell. My tears fell, my heart fell, I fell onto the floor, and the next thing I could see was black.

[Hoseok pov]
We all arrived in the hospital, expect for Yoongi, who we had messaged and called and looked for, but couldn't find him anywhere, but we left a note and hurried to the hospital.
There were loads of bodyguards with us, that had somehow found out about Namjoon and were now surrounding us, which in my opinion just attracted more looks.
Jimin gasped and ran to the left, where as we turned, found Jin, surrounded by doctors.
We all ran to him, and the doctors started asking us loads of questions, "do you know him?", "does he have any medical issues?"

After explaining that he was here with our "friend" who had cancer they all shared a look and placed him on a bed, before telling us to follow him.
"Will he be alright?" Jungkook asked, his voice shaky, as Taehyung rubbed his back.
"He most likely fainted from the shock of seeing his friend being rushed into surgery, with many tubes in him, we've gave him a relaxant, and he should wake up in an hour or so, but he will be perfectly fine" the doctor explained, smiling at Jungkook.

"However, does somebody want to follow me as I talk about your friend in surgery?" he asked, no longer smiling. I looked at the others and nodded, before following him out, telling the others to message Yoongi and stay with Jin.

I really hoped Jin and Yoongi would come back, as I was nervous and scared right now, and I had to be mature and look out for others.

We entered a nice room with a desk and some comfy chairs, and I took a seat. I noticed the name of the doctor was Dr. LEE, however I also noticed as I glanced around the room some unsettling pictures, "how to deal when a loved one dies", "how to support someone in pain" and so on, and gulped as my eyes glanced over them.

"Sorry, I never got your name?" the doctor said as he held out his hand for me to shake it. I cleared my throat, before grasping his hand and shaking it, "Jung Hoseok".

"Hoseok, I'm the second main doctor over your friend in surgery, the main doctor is currently in the theater. Basically, as you know the patient has lung cancer, stage 4, but it's now after spreading to other organs, we did a scan, and found out it's affecting his Liver, which is the main reason he was coughing up the blood, the surgery we are doing now, is to remove the part of the liver that the cancer is affecting. People can survive with just under half their liver, so there's no need to worry. However, if it continues to spread, he may need a liver transplant" the doctor explained as I sat there with my mouth opened, as I tried to process the information.

"What about his lungs?" I asked, and the doctor smiled slightly." After the surgery he will be here for at least 3 days, and then we will have to start radiation or chemo therapy, and possibly both."

I bit my lip as I nodded.
"The most important question though doctor, will he live?" I asked even though I wanted to cover my ears and run.

Hoseok, I am really so sorry, but I can't give you an honest answer. Some people do fine and recover quickly, others recover slowly, others don't recover at all.
But I'm sorry to say this, but we tell all patients this.

"Get him to write his will and a bucket list"

[Word count - 1314]

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