Kitten ( Namjoon x BTS)

39- You Can't Buy Happiness

[Namjoon POV]

I smiled at my boyfriends as they left the room to let me talk to my friends alone. I felt bad for what I was about to ask them but I couldn't help it.

"I need your help and the boys can't know" I explained while they took a seat around me.

"What do you mean?" Jinyoung asked, as he tilted his head.

"I know the boys are trying to stay positive and they've been so good to me, but hyungs I can't help but to pretend that I'm doing okay to them when I'm not" I said and bit my lip when I felt 14 eyes on me,staring at me deeply.

"You're not okay" Yugueom asked, and his voice cracked.

I sighed, and tried to take a deep breath only to be met with pain spreading through my body.

"I'm dying hyungs, the boys are always saying that I won't die, and that I'll be okay, but I know I won't. My body is getting weaker and weaker and it's becoming harder to pretend that I'm okay. I've spoke to the doctor privately, and I only have a few more days to choose" I spoke, stopping halfway through as I got another burst of pain and I couldn't help but to let out a groan as I shut my eye tight.

Yugyeom immediately squeezed my hand, giving me reassurance and a smile.
"Can I ask a question" Mark spoke up, and I nodded.
"What do you mean by choose?".

I smiled at them all, before shaking my head slightly.
"I don't know if this was a dream or not but when I was still in a coma, just right before I woke up, an angel spoke to me. She said that I have to choose whether I live or die" I explained, smiling at Mark. Who was seriously listening to me.

"Don't be embarrassed Namjoon, I've heard of situations like that before from stories my mother told" Jackson said as he patted my shoulder gently.

"Thank you" I whispered out to him.
"Just choose to live then right?" Bambam said.

I let out a giggle before shaking my head no.

"The angel told me that if I choose to live, we will all be happy but something terrible could happen later" I explained.

"I've heard about that stuff, but I thought it was just for comedy" Mark muttered out.

"What happened when you heard about it?" Jinyoung asked Mark, and everyone turned to look at him as he spoke.

"The person's family died from some serious issue, and the person who was sick lived until an old age in pain of heartbreak" Mark said, and he slowly began to bite his lip and look at the floor.

"You're joking right?" Bambam asked and Mark scoffed. "Do you think I would be joking at a time like this".

"The angel also told me that I could choose to die, and that the boys would eventually overcome it but Jimin wouldn't be able to handle it and would choose to die as he would rather die than live without me" I said as I sniffed, and rubbed my eyes, trying not to cry.

"Listen, none of that matters okay, all that matters is that you're happy and comfortable until your last minutes" Yugyeom said and turned away but as he did, I caught sight of his tears. Jackson comforted him.

"I am happy Yuggie, and the boys and the doctors are doing everything theh can to make me comfortable and pain free, but I really need you help, please" I begged, giving the puppy eyes to them all as that tended to give me what I wanted.

"What do you mean by you need help Joonie?" Jackson asked and I smiled at him, finally getting to the topic I wanted to talk most about.

"I.." I began to say but not knowing how to say it.