Insanity

Chapter 1

College is supposed to be the place where I finally let loose and be free. Being sheltered my entire life has contributed to the longing I have for going wild. I mean my mom was never one to let me go out with friends, let alone have a romantic relationship. As an angsty and lonely teenager, it gets to you. I always told myself that I was okay with being alone, but my lord was that far from the truth. I don't know if it was all the years of isolation that made me crave any kind of love or what but ever since I left home for the summer before college, I have some questionable things. I mean, it's not all bad. Nothing I regret, so far.

As I arrive at college the day before orientation, I find myself feeling so nervous and the anxiety already eating at me. How exactly am I supposed to find friends? I'm not social, in fact, I'm beyond awkward. Back in high school, I had friendships that followed throughout elementary school so no big deal in transitioning between grades, but this... this is a whole new ball game. I am alone, more than 3,000 miles between home and me.

What was I thinking coming here? There's no way I'm going to survive this I think dramatically.

I walk into the main building of the campus. I look around nervously. I'm supposed to get my dorm key, ID and list of required reading materials. Yet here I am looking like a doofus with no clue as to where to look. I sigh heavily when I notice someone sitting in the lounge area of the building. I walk up to them;

might as well ask someone I think to myself. I stop in my tracks...I don't think I've ever seen someone look quite so flawless. Smooth pale skin, dark hair and a jawline that could cut glass.

I haven't even seen his entire face and I'm already getting too nervous to talk to him! I think to myself. Great! As I'm about to turn the other way, his head moves up and he looks at me. My oh my, those green eyes...why did it have to be green eyes!?

"Can I help you with something?" He asks, his voice husky

"uh...yeah where can get I the ID and keys? I mean where can I get them?" I ask flustered. Ah, my anxiety gets the best of me. Why can't I be confident to have a normal conversation? I can already feel my face getting hot.

"Oh, right around the corner past the front desk," he says and turns away seeming not to notice my incorrect use of words.

"Thanks," I say softly, doubting he even heard me. I walk away towards the direction he gave me. I hope I don't run into him again; I am too much of a flustering mess to even try to have a small conversation with anyone, especially not someone as attractive as him. And I truly wish that had been the last I ever saw of him.

After I get my keys and ID I head toward my new home for the next year. The dorms are huge! The apartment-style dorms are bigger than my place back in California! I can't help but smile at this place, there so much space and the natural light makes it look homey. I look around the dorm apartment. It looks like I'm the first one here. I go to my assigned room and pick the bed closest to the window. Yep. I'm here adulting—and I am scared out of my mind.

I hear the door open and in comes in a tall blond girl with her parents in tow. I smile and say a friendly hello towards them. The girl smiles widely at me.

"Hi, I'm Riley! A pleasure to meet you" she says in a cheery voice. I don't know why but the happiness in her voice gives me relief.

"Hey, I'm Alessandra!" I say with a smile. I get closer and ask to help her with her bags. Riley thanks me for my help and soon I am glad to discover that she is my roommate. I greet her parents and they greet me back. They bring suitcase after suitcase...well damn, Riley sure has a lot of stuff. I look over to my side, it looks empty and bland. I brought my entire life in a single suitcase and a duffle bag.

As soon as her parents leave, she has a mischievous glint in her eyes. That's all I needed to tell me that this college experience was about to be one hell of a ride.