Insanity

Chapter 4

I ended up messaging Dalton, and we've kept our conversation going. But for some reason, every time he wants to hang out, I just can't do it. my anxiety gets the best of me and I can't stop it. I feel my pocket vibrate and I take my phone out.

Hey Lessi, wanna help me study for my chem test? I read his message. I get a warm feeling in my chest just from seeing the nickname he has given me. Lessi. No one has ever given me a real nickname before. I can't help but think back to the trail, on that day when he called me sweet cheeks, I know it's not the same but still.

Sure. I'll meet you at the library at 3 pm today I reply back to him. I have been avoiding meeting up but what the hell, I'll never get out of this shell if I don't push myself. Its already 2 pm, might as well try to look decent, Dalton is hot, and I don't need him thinking I look scummy or something.

With that I take a look at the mirror, my black hair hangs down in messy waves, my light brown eyes look tired and my olive skin is dry from the hot weather. I don't have time for another shower, so I just spray dry shampoo into my hair to make it look alive again, a little concealer around the eyes and some lotion. Done, looking like new.

I look at the time, its already 2:45 pm, did I seriously spend that long pitying myself in the mirror!? I walk out of the dorm building and make my way to the campus library, it's a good 10-minute walk from where I live. I walk fast but can't help to breathe heavily, I am most definitely not athletic.

I make it to the library with a few minutes to spare, I quickly straighten myself out and head towards the study rooms, I scan each one until my eyes land on Dalton. He hasn't seen me yet, that's when I get the idea to sneak up on him. I quietly tiptoe behind him, I put my hands over his eyes and whisper boo!

I did not expect him to basically flip me over on to his lap. I let out a scream, and he starts laughing.

"Did you really think you could sneak up on me Lessi?" He asks still laughing. My cheeks get red and I can't help but laugh.

"Yeah, I really thought I had you!" I yell out. That's when it hits me, I'm still on his lap. An attractive older guy's lap. Swoon. I feel his hands on my hips and I start to wiggle my way off of his lap. He groans.

"Lessi, you should be more careful getting off of me," He says quietly. I realize that I'm basically grinding on him and almost fall trying to stand up.

"You're the one that put me there," I tell him as a matter of fact.

"Yeah yeah, don't pretend you didn't like it," he tells me. I internally agree, of course, I liked it. feeling his warm body pressed that close to mine can give any girl wild fantasies. I may be shy but not stupid. I can see how girls look at him.

"Here, I've prepared all of these note cards, just quiz me and go over whatever I miss," He tells me. I nod. We spend the next hour studying for his chem test. I'm glad I pushed myself today.

The first few months of college have been okay, not exactly eventful. I have gone to a few parties with Riley here and there but most of the time we end up just drinking together in our dorm. We are lucky enough that she has 21+ friends here that do us the favor of bringing us alcohol, at a price of course. Riley is sociable and has been seeing a few guys on and off, I, on the other hand, have not met a soul. I've talked to Dalton a few times, but for some reason I always find myself making excuses as to why we can't hang out most of the time.

I'm going to have lunch alone today because Riley went home for the weekend, she left earlier today. It's Friday and I, a loser am going to probably sleep all weekend long as to not die of boredom. I get my sandwich and salad. I scan the seating area and choose a spot to sit at. Fortunately, the cafeteria is not so busy. I sit and begin to eat my food. I hear the chair in front of me move and I look up. I see Dalton smiling at me as he takes a seat.