Are you here? Heh. You're a curious one. I'm not making any promises, but you might just regret coming here. As I stated before, there's nothing. Even if I do make something, it'll all be pretense, like everything else you see in your life. Lies. This, also, will be a part of that lie if I go any further.
But I guess we both have no choice but to go along with that lie. It hurts, but we go along anyway, because we are afraid of that nothingness and void. Funny isnt it? To embrace pain, because we have no choice. Surely you've seen other stories centred around pain and suffering. You can relate to it, or at least feel their pain, even if they're all a lie too, you embrace that lie.
To embrace lies and pain, it's all so absurd we still do it with no question.
Some of you would be fed up with me blabering all this, some of you would understand what I feel, while some of you wouldnt care as long as you get what you want. You all are so different but you're still here together? Perhaps not so different then. Time and space brought you together here, at this moment.
Life, what is it? You, what are you? I feel both their answer are the same.
I would be honest, I'm very lost. I'm losing it. However long can I go on? I dont know. All I ever wanted to be was to be good enough. And you know what? I failed. I am completely different from what I aspired to be. If i must say, I'm very confused. I apologize if I fail to meet your expectation, but I always fail at everything. So, bear with it if you're gonna read any further.
I would like to heartily thank you if you read through all of that. Though, I might have lost majority of my heart anyway. Let's see what the next chapter might be about.
YOU ARE READING
I am tired, and defeated
Non-Fictionis it a story? is it worth a reading? is it an answer to your questions? only one way to find out.
