Maybe I Hate You//L.S.

You Want Me Gone

I opened the door keeping on my straight face, Louis is still working on whatever thing he's been doing since he live here "What the fuck was that?"

"What the fuck was what?" He looked up from his keyboard in confusion

"You know exactly what I meant" I walked to his bed holding on my furious face

"Look your little girlfriend came in, out of nowhere telling me to leave and I'm pretty sure I told her to fuck off, so she gone mad" Louis rolled his blue eyes "I'll help you work on your project if you want but I'm not gonna say sorry"

I'll just wish I could love someone else beside you, but until then I wish you still think of me you little shit.

"Now"

"What?"

"The project needs to start now" I said sternly

"But it's due till next week"

"Well you shouldn't tell Kendal to fuck off at the first place"

"Whatever" He turned off his laptop, standing up to my level, not technically though "where to?"

Louis started doing my work on the edge of my bed, while I'm on my phone scrolling through Liam messages asking how it is going.

I looked up from my phone, Louis's dark eyes circle are getting darker than a week ago, his cheekbone getting sharper. My mind kept skipping back to the wonder of what's going on in his mind when he decided to gone completely changed.

"Don't l-look at me like that" Louis stuttered, looking anywhere but my eyes

"Like what?" I'm getting comfortable with the silence between us now; it's been a good long while to be honest

"Like I'm... I'm different, like you want me gone" He whispered the last part, staring blankly at the screen

My heart just stopped right there and then, what would I ever want him gone, not even once after two years has I ever not wish to see him

I couldn't form up a word to say, isn't it the other way around?

"Well it's not like I have a choice anyway, I apologies for being a burden" he hesitantly looked in my eyes, with guilt and shame "I won't be here long... as soon as I can afford an apartment, I'll be out of sign"

"Get out of my bed I need to sleep" I got myself under the sheets facing my back at him

After got things prepared Louis went back to his bed and fell asleep soundly, while I'm laying wide awake stuck on the thing he say. It's 3am and I'm full of thoughts.

I looked at Louis as he snuggled deeper under his blanket. 

You got a choice you know, you have countless chances because i never leave you no choice since the first day I saw you. you got a choice when you could pick up the phone and you got a choice to not broke my heart completely, and you have a choice to brake my heart again, to left me dead again rapidly because you are the only person I want near, the only person I ever loved