My Broken Mate (Man x Man)

Chapter 14

Connor's P.O.V

I sit in the kitchen by the kitchen counter between James and Anna, Jasper sitting across from me stealing not so secret glances in my direction as I pretend that I don't notice him.

Silently eating the wonderful breakfast Anna made us, scarfing down the food so I don't have to think about what Jasper had asked in the hallway of the guest bedroom.

I didn't want to think about how handsome he looked or how I like his raspy deep voice. I didn't want to think about how I felt when he had walked into the room when I was in just a towel or how he grabbed onto me when I was about to fall or the sparks and emotions it brought forth, both warm feelings and the trauma it brought with it.

Even though I was trying not to think of everything that happened, it still entered my thoughts.

Like the fact that he said the mate bond is growing stronger or how it only grows in strength when you accept the bond.

I don't understand how can it be getting close to being complete if I didn't accept the bond, but maybe I have subconsciously welcomed the bond as it brought such warmth and comfort.

The mating bond scared me, it was making me trust him and feel safe to be around him, it was making me think about what I'm feeling towards him and I just want to ignore it.

Hearing Jasper tells me he loves me still left me stunned, my heart always skips a beat whenever anyone told me they loved me but when Jasper did, I thought it had stopped beating until I would feel it slamming hard and fast against my ribcage.

I was also shocked to hear about Jasper thinking he was straight his whole life like me and thought his mate would be female, however, surprise, surprise it was me a male. I thought he'd say that he didn't want to be with me or deny the bond, again he caught me by surprise when he confesses it doesn't bother him and he fell in love with me almost immediately.

When I heard Jasper talk about that it made me feel so happy, I had almost smiled but I suppressed it, I kept asking why I was feeling this way, then I remembered it was the mate bond, I don't know if I should hate it or embrace it.

And when Jasper talked about doing it the human way, the slow way, and when he asked me what my decision would be, I almost cried. The emotions swimming around me, at finally getting to choose what to be and free to do what I wanted, sure the situation wasn't what I was expecting and I am still unsure of what my answer would be.

"Good morning, everyone, " a monotone voice greets us, looking up from my staring contest with the ketchup bottle and bringing me out of my daydreams to see a very tall and strange man entering the kitchen.

The man had a lot of muscles on his bones, as much as Jasper even, which is a lot. He has sapphire blue eyes wavy brown hair, sharp cheekbones, and a strong chin, this stranger is very handsome, just not as handsome as Jasper.

I blink at the thought, my cheeks burning up.

"Connor this is Leo, Jasper's beta and best friend," Anna informs me, now that she mentioned it, his voice did sound familiar from the prison, the one who was in charge of torturing.

I shift in my seat in discomfort at being in the same room with him, the serious expression on his face scaring me more.

Leo nods his head in my direction, his lips twitching to a small smile that changes his features and makes him appear pretty.

His gaze then shifts to lock with Jasper both of them staring at each other with an intense look before nodding and they both leave without a word.

I stare confused for a long time before I look to Anna, who is such an observant person told me that they were communicating using the mind link and she also explained what a mind link is, I sat there stunned again you'd think I'd be used to it already but I'm not, it also looked like James and Jasper forgot to mention that important detail. I thought that they were just close friends that can communicate using just their eyes.

After breakfast, we cleaned up and Anna asked to talk with me with a beautiful smile gracing her lips.

Now we seat at a park watching little kids both in human form and in wolf form running around, playing and having fun. I smiled at the pups, they're little paws digging up dirt as well as their little yips as they chase each other and their tails.

"Connor, " Anna calls out to me, her voice soft.

Locking eyes with her eyes so similar to Jasper's bottle-green eyes her more of emerald green with a smile on her face.

"I feel like my sons didn't do a very good job of explaining things to you like how we run this pack or that we own this town or the fact that Jasper is the mayor of this little town of eight hundred residents all which are  werewolves also you're the only human in our pack, did you know that?" Anna asks me curiously her head tilted to the side, her blonde hair blowing with the wind.

I shook my head, no. I didn't know that everyone here is a werewolf or that I'm the only human amount these carnivores. I also wasn't aware of Jasper being the mayor of this town or how many werewolves are in the wolf pack.

My heart raced at the thought of being surrounded by these dangerous creatures.

"Oh my sons, such idiots." She sighs with a small smile on her face.

"Anyways what I wanted to talk about is what we discussed yesterday." She commented looking sour her palms pressed against her lap.

"How are you feeling, Connor?"

I signed heavily thinking about how I truly felt but no good answer came to mind, after escaping Mark and that hell hole I thought I would feel elated, then I was taken prison because these werewolf creatures feared that I was someone that threatened they lively hood and I found out more about these people and got myself a soulmate as well as learned about someone who suffered the same as me, its a lot to process, its a lot to handle. My emotions and how I'm feeling are something I can't differentiate right now.

"I'm fine, " is my smart reply, Anna gives me a knowing look, the corner of her lip quirked in a tiny smile.

"Sure you are." She scoffs, while I just shrug my shoulder, my lips pursued together.

"Well I know you're not fine and if it makes you feel better, I'm sorry that happened to you, James also told me about your parents and I'm sorry about that too, even if saying sorry does nothing I hope it comforts you," Anna says to me gently after a pause, a comforting smile on her face.

I return her smile, her simple words helping me realize that sure what happened in the past is awful and traumatic but I'm free from that now. Sure Mark is still out there and trauma like that doesn't just go away overnight, yet my gut is telling me that it's going to be alright, now that I've found these people. Yes, it has only been a few days here, nonetheless, I feel like it's going to be my home for life.

"The man you came here with is that your relative and why did you runway from him?" Anna asks curiously, her eyes closely observing my reaction.

I tense at the mention of him, giving away what Anna wanted to know. My blue eyes expressing to her who that man was to me.

Anna inhales sharply, her eyes widening a fraction as her lips part in a small gasp of shock.

A long stretch of silence follows as I explain through my eyes and tensed body that the man I escaped from was the man who abused me in not only a sexual way but in a lot of awful, cruel ways as well.

"He's my uncle, Mark," I reply to her question my eyes averted from her in shame.

"And he's the one........?" Anna's voice trail the horror written all over her face as I nod my head confirming it.

Anna breathing hitches as she turns away, her hands over her mouth, the quiet descends upon us, only the sound of gleeful children resounding in our ears.

For some reason, I felt compelled to talk about what happened to me, whispering my words knowing that Anna could still hear what I was saying, I tried not to get emotional but the tears running down my cheeks said otherwise, Anna comforted me in a way that remained me of my mother, choking with a sob, Anna held tears in her own eyes as she called me brave and strong.

We sat there in this park surrounded by happiness as we cried, wrapped in each other's arms, seeking comfort and safety.

Smiling softly at me, she wipes away not only my tears but worries as well.