Hayes Grier's Twin (Book 1)

A/N As Promised

Well, here's the author's note I promised. It's explains whats going on with me and why I don't update too much or as much as I want to.

For maybe half a year, I've been depressed. Not bad enough to cut, but certainly to sulk around and not be who I truly am. My dad's been sick since May, he's been in and out of hospitals, with one surgery, that didn't go too good for him :(. He has arrythmia, meaning his heart beats too fast, or too slow. He has a defibrillator in him that shocks him to help his heart go back to normal. Whenever it shocks him, even once, we have to take him to the hospital. It's always been in the middle of the night, so sometimes I don't get the amount of sleep I need. It rarely shocks him, but we have to take him to make sure he's okay. Honestly, it's hard living with him, because I'm always worried he's gonna die, or something might go wrong. His medicine stopped working, he's on a new one now, but we have no idea how it affects him exactly. HE IS STILL ALIVE, JUST SICK IN A WAY :'(. Combined with the crazy amount of stress I have at school, and being bullied for a while, it hasn't helped my depression at all. I don't know how long it could go on, but I also have the stress of moving to a different state in about half a year, and in a way I want to but don't want to move! I'll miss my friends and family. 

I know I probably come off as a happy person, but I'm depressed and can't stop that feeling. I want to, but nothing can make me cheer up lately. I really wish something would happen to make it all better. The doctor even said with patients like my dad, they don't tend to live a long life :'(. 

Well, now you know why I'm not updating or trying to be happy. I love you and all your support. Know right now this is no joke.  -Lea