Sabrina

Chapter 4

After I found my mate and ran away to the hotel room I decided it was better for us to go back home. After I told Leila what happened she tried to convince me to confront him but I wasn't the only one hurt, my wolf was in so much pain she hasn't even try to show appearance.

"Sabrina I think is time for you to leave your room you need to eat something", Jacob said for like the millionth time this past week.

"I'm not feeling well just please don't worry I'll be out when I feel better".

"Listen I don't know what happen and I know Leila know something but whatever it is don't let it keep you from the world. Your wolf need to be let out eventually or she will get sick too", he said and I heard his foot step signaling he was walking away.

Only if he knew I'm like this because I can't find my wolf anywhere inside me. I think she have shattered in billion peaces I don't even know how I can reach to her and comfort her, I mean we both in the same page here we saw the same thing he is my mate too, right?

I wonder if I would had stayed behind my wolf would had forgive him, if I would had done it. I don't know if the pain I'm feeling right now is from the betrayal I felt when I saw him or because of my decision to leave him. Either case my wolf didn't fight to stay, so she must feel the grieve just as I am feeling it too. Would she ever recover from such fate?

"How many other women have you bed?" I yelled in desperation.

Leila walked in my room and looked at me worried.

"I'm sure everyone heard you and are looking at each other confused", she said.

"I'm so confused, and what's worst, I can't talk to my wolf and ask for her opinion because is like she is dead", I cried. "She would not listen to my pleads or tell me if at least she hearing me or anything. She is completely detach. I can't bare this anymore not alone I need her".

Leila was next to me in seconds trying to calm me down.

"I've never seen you like this and it worries me Sabrina. Without your wolf your human body would not last much. You two work both the same if you are badly injure and won't recover she can't live without you and it seems that although she wasn't physically hurt your mate did a tremendous damage".

"I have tried to get her to talk to me if she wanted to go back and find him, but all I get is a silent end".

"You should go shower, you look terrible. I want us to take a walk maybe the outdoors would bring her out, she might want to go for a run let out some steam", Leila said getting off from my bed and walking to my bathroom.

I followed her and sat in the toilet while she was making sure the water was good and filled up my tub. She brought my shampoo and soap, made some bubbles and left me to get in the tub.

"Deep in here for a little bit. I'll be back to help you bath in about 15 minutes".

"Thank you".

While seating in the bathtub letting the heat of the water relax my tense muscles my mind keep going on a roller coaster. Wishing for my mate to be different, for my wolf give me some advice, to wonder if he even tried to find me, and it just went on and on and on.

I heard my bedroom door open and saw Leila walking in. She started emptying the tub and helped me to get up. She then got the water running thru the shower head and started massaging
my head with the shampoo.

You must think is weird but she and Jacob were the one who found me and took care of me when I was a just a kid with a wolf. She will always have that maternal instinct when it comes to me feeling sick or sad or anything.