Jane & Joan

Chapter Eight : Apology

Jane

It's been a week now since I last heard from Joan. Ever since the incident the other day, I haven't heard from her. The last thing I remembered was "get into the car now! ". I can't really say this was what happened after then. I don't know if she got punished or not. I've been having sleepless nights and it is affecting me gradually. I've been calling her number but not reach able.

I don't know why it's so hard for her dad to give in. What's so special about taking over his business. This is not right. Violation of human rights is punishable under the law. Nigeria Constitution does not encourage violation of human rights and he could get arrested for this.

I won't gain anything in arresting him. When he goes to jail, who will sponsor Joan for any thing she later decided to do. It doesn't even make any sense. Hurting her dad, Mr Oluwarokanmi is hurting joan also which makes it more complicated.

Why are my own parents not like that? They are always supporting me in whatever thing I do. They don't go against my wish. They encourage me to do better. They do not dictate for me. I make my own decisions and they back me up. That's how it should be. Not the other way round.

Mr Rokanmi has been like that also since the time I've met him. He has been supporting my friend in whatever thing she wants. He always give her all the necessary support she needed. I don't know what happened all of a sudden. He changed totally. What could have happened? I guess life is like a roller coaster. It turns. You have no idea when it's your turn. I pray it never get to the point where my parents would start behaving the same way.

I pray things work out fine soon. WAEC results will be out in a few days and admission will start commencing. I pray things go the way we want. I don't see myself in my right senses without Joan. We've gotten so addicted to each other to the extent that I can't make friends with other people. It's like starting all over again.

The dream of being part of the cast of telenovelas is about to go the dust. We've been planning on how to be good at what we do so that we can gain recognition as soon as we get to the industry. We even planned on creating an episode movie with our names. Which is "Jane&Joan"...  How we are going to do this is what I don't know because we want the movie to feature just the both of us with a very interesting story line. All we need is just a good script writer to make that possible...

Urhmmm... Jane... Stop imagining things. I don't think this will ever be possible. It's better I stop day dreaming and face the reality. It seems like Joan is never coming back.. It's hurt so much. It's really hurt. I can't believe i'm crying right now. I miss you Joan...

Joan

I miss you Jane. Life hasn't been the same without you. I've been evolving around the same routine every day. I can't even think properly. Everything and everyone seems to be annoying. I don't know if I can keep up with this. I've been thinking of suicide lately. I know it's not an option but i'm so depressed. I'm close to loosing it completely.

A lot of dreams are about to go down the dust. Is that what dreams are about? If God knows that dreams do not come true then why does he give us the capacity to dream in the first place. It's all a waste. Whether I like it or not, I have to succumb to my father's wish if I ever want to go to school. No amount of screaming and talking back at him will amend anything.

I guess Morade was right. I don't have to talk back at my dad. It's not good. God doesn't even support it. I can't believe i'm reasoning along with Morade. I guess he makes sense for the first time. I need to apologize to daddy. I have to apologize to Morade also. He doesn't deserve the way I've been treating him also. I've been so rude and bitchy. An apology won't kill me. May be God will make a way after that.