Sex Addict

Chapter 1 : 2 Years Ago

It was July 5th,2012. We were living in

a 3 bedroom house in Compton,

California. I had just gotten my test

results from my finals that I took the

final week of school. My GPA was at a

4.0, I had got accepted by 5 University

colleges. I was very excited and wanted

to take my mother and my little brother

(12) out to eat at "Wingstop". They

serve my favorite honey barbecue

boneless chicken wings with the extra

sweet barbecue sauce on the fries.

Anyways as we were eating my mother

started crying out of no where.

I Said "ma what's wrong?"

She said, "I got something to tell you

2."

As she was crying my little brother

hugged her and said

"Mama just tell us, we can make it

better."

She cried some more,

"No we can't I'm dying... I have cancer

and I don't know how much longer I

have to live."

That's when my life flashed before my

eyes. My mother, the lady who raised

us for many years by herself is now

dying. How am I going to take care of

myself and a child? My eyes filled with

tears. Then I thought "Why God? Why

me?" I started crying and my brother

did too. We were afraid.

My mother said,

"Tay go to the bathroom and let me talk

to ya sister for a bit."

He did and she grabbed my hands.

She said "Baby, I know this is hard on

a-all of us. I want you to raise Tay for

me, you can't let them put him into

foster care."

I cried and said "Mama how I'm gone

do that, I'm barely grown myself."

She sniffled and said "One thing a black

woman know how to do is make it, you

can still go to c-collage and still get a

job. Imagine if your brother was in

foster care separated from you! Your

his only family left, you is all he got!"

I said "Mama they can't cure your

cancer?"

"it's not just cancer, it's vaginal cancer.

They found a tumor growing in my

uterus and it's been there for 5 years

they say."

She cries some more and hugs me,

"They told me if I would have been

getting my yearly Pap smears this

would have been prevented."

I said, "So mama it's your fault and I-I-

I'm suppose to be punished! YOUR

LEAVING US. I can't do this, I'm

suppose to be enjoying my teenage

years and you ruined it!"

I ran out of the restaurant, crying. I

was hurt, scared, and betrayed. I went

home and went to sleep to the sound of

Chris Brown playing on my tv. The next

morning I was the first awake.. My

mother slept longer then me and my

brother. So, I decided to wake her up

and apologize to her for what I said and

just tell her that I love her.

"Mama wake up."

I shook her, she didn't move.

"Mama get up!"

She still didn't move I began crying,

"MAMA GET UP. TAAAAAYYYY CALL

9-1-1."

I screamed and felt for her pulse. Her

face was cold and her pulse wasn't

beating. I then realized my mother was

DEAD! She was dead. I broke down

and Tay did too.

He cried , "Mama."

As the ambulance rushed into the

house my eyes were big.

I said to Tay, "I didn't even get a chance

to tell her I love her."

I felt like I was missing a piece of me.

And I was. My mother is gone.