Painful Life

Chapter 21

I Can't Hide What Has Killed Me, Forever

As i walked up to school, Sarah came over to me.

"Alice!"

I walked faster, ignoring her.

"Alice, let me explain!"

I stopped and turned around frusterated.

"Explain what? That you kissed my boyfriend?"

She paused.

"There is nothing, absolutely nothing you can do. What you did is unforgivable.... Sarah, you are dead to me." I walked away with hot tear rolling down my face.

"What makes you so mad!?! The fact i kissed your boyfriend, or your hopeless crush for 8 years, loser!?" She shouted.

She crossed it.

I turned and looked at her again.

" Both!"

I walked towards her.

"You killed me. Not even a slightest bit of mersy. You stabbed my heart. Not only that, you carved it out. Tore me limb by limb and shreded me. Burned me. Killed me. Joshua wasn't just some crush. He was my 8 year crush for a reason. He lit a flame in me. He built me up and made me fall in love with him. He made me wish apon eye lashes, 11:11, dandilions, and pray to god that some day he would relize how much i wanted so badly to be his friend at least. I wanted to be his friend. Wished to be his best friend, and hoped and fantasized that he would be my boyfriend. He chases after girls that ignored him and were too stupid to see how lucky they were to have him like them so much. I knew he liked popular, blonde, blue eyed, smart, nice, and everything im not. And wished he would some day turn around and see that i was the one that wanted him so badly. And call me his girlfriend. After nights and nights of crying to sleep because of him. And having depression over him. I finally met Michael. The one person that made me forget Joshua. But you had to take them both away from me. And leave me hating myself for being me. Thinking i was to ugly, fat, retarded, idiot to even have him think of me for one second. Congradulations Sarah. You offically broke something that can never be put back together or fixed. My heart. You finally killed every. Last. Piece. Of. Me. And who cares right? If i decide to end my life now, tomarrow, or now. Nobody i guess. Cause everyone seemed to care a whole lot about only you. Since, you know. In apparently a loser."

I walked away looking like a mess. Everyone was staring. Dead silence.

"Yea, so now all of you know me! Oh and Im a freak cuz i wear a scoliosis brace. There, now you now me."

I walked away to a corner and cried. At lunch i was still in that corner. As people walked passed some of them whispered to there friends and walked around me. Some whisphered to their friends and laughed at me. Others looked at me in digust. Joshua walked up to me.

"Let me guess i embaressed you hmm?"

"No....but... did you really mean the things you said?"

"Ha, yea, why the heck would i make it up?"

He grabbed my arm and yanked me up.

"OW! WHAT THE HECK!?! LET. ME. GO!!!!"

He kissed me again........... Would he stop that?!"

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