Remnants Revived | Reincarnated as Catra | She-Ra fanfiction

Chapter Two: Still a Mess

"A piece of debris fell on me after the shockwave one of the princesses released." I was surprised that I could answer with a steady voice and a straight face. I breathed in and out, staring at Shadow weaver with calm eyes. Shadow Weaver stared at me, looking up and down, as if searching for any sign of weakness. After she stopped her... assessment of me, she stared me straight in the eye. "How long will it take for this to heal." She was speaking to the medic, but kept her piercing gaze on me. "Six to ten weeks, Ma'am." She stood straight with Shadow Weaver, unlike her previous relaxed state.

I waited for Shadow Weaver to say something, but all she asked was, "Where is Adora?" I wasn't surprised. Thinking about the blonde made me feel a little melancholy. She was probably off somewhere with her new friends. Gah, those two words were bitter. Let's get this conversation over with and done so I don't have to think about negative things anymore! Nufufufu~

"She left the Horde. She went to join the princesses." Shadow Weaver growled and the room seemed to grow darker. And nooow I understand why old Catra was so scared of her. Yep, that made perfect sense. Shadow Weaver was pretty intimidating, wasn't she? Even I was a little unsettled with her. Okay, I'll admit it. I was really unsettled and a little freaked with Shadow Weaver's reaction. Man, she was a scary lady. At least I'd be able to see ma cinnamon rolls soon.

"What. do. you. mean. Adora. Left?" Her voice was strained as she tried to not explode. The medic slowly and quietly inched out the door. 'Waaaaiiittt! Nuuuu, don't leeaaaaaave meeeeee!' I mentally cried out to the medic. "I mean what I said. She left the Horde. She left us..." I trailed off, unsure of what else to say. Shadow Weaver yelled at me, "You useless feline! I gave you one simple mission, but you couldn't even complete it! Now Adora is still gone, the forces you lead are destroyed, and you're incapacitated!" Her shadows materialized behind her, but then hesitated, only to turn around and storm out the door, her shadows following ominously behind her. I breathed a sigh of relief and the medic came back a few minutes later.

"Until your ankle is healed, you will be unable to go on missions." I nodded. It was understandable. Not that I wanted to go on missions, no siree. Not with all the damage done to everything and everyone. The medic gave me one last once over before shooing me away with a crutch. Uwa... man... this sucks... This crutch is painful. My armpit is already sore and it's only been a few minutes. I'm also really hungry... I fantasized about the foods I would next eat, before I remembered that there was just that. That sludge-like bar that is basically the all and everything that the Horde relies on to eat. Man... That's just depressing...

I walked over to where I remembered my sleeping quarters to be, although it took a bit of trial and error. Once I finally arrived, I saw a familiar face. Uwaaa! /ᐠ｡ꞈ｡ᐟ\ It's Lonnie! Stars in my eyes, I approach her nervously. As I get closer, our eyes meet and I hold my breath. Lonnie raises an eyebrow, speculatively. "Catra, if you're here to say something then say-" Lonnie stopped short when I wrapped my arms around her in a hug. Lonnie was stiff, I wasn't surprised. Beforehand, I had always been suspicious. It had always been me and Adora against the world, so I was cold, sarcastic, and uncaring of how I treated others, as I had believed they would always treat me the same. I held her tightly, knowing that she was probably confused. I loosened my hold, my eyes glossy, and smiled brightly.

"It's been a really long day. I am so glad to see you again." Lonnie's brown eyes were wide in confusion, unsure of how to respond. And then I realized how weird and different I had just acted. I yelped, jumped back, and looked away blushing in embarrassment. "Ehem. I mean... uh..." I trailed off, unsure of how to continue. I timidly looked up, only to see Lonnie looking back cautiously. I offer up an unsure smile, before awkwardly sidestepping towards my bunk and sitting down. I lie down as Lonnie slowly walks out the door, her eyes tracing my frame until she leaves the room fully. The door shuts and I'm left to my lonesome self. I saw two cute but simple drawings, one of Adora and one of me. My fingers trace the lines, my eyes getting blurry. My body trembles as I let out a shaky breath, burning tears streaming down my face.

It hurts so badly... I know I want more for myself than just pain, loneliness, misery. I may go through pain, but whether or not I suffer is my choice. However, today's been a long day. I was emotionally spent. I cried into my pillow, to muffle my sobs. The last thing I wanted was to have somebody hear me and confront me or something. I wanted relationships with others, but I had acted idiotic with Lonnie earlier. It would have to be a process. And as much as I knew how things would play out, I wish that Adora was here to run her fingers through my hair. I want hot chocolate and to drown myself in anime and drawing. How I yearned for a pencil and the feel of paper. How I yearned to smell spices and taste delicious food. I wanted to replace the sound of my sniffles with headphones and music. I missed my family... I missed my cat so much... How were they doing? These overlays of emotions had flooded my head with thoughts, but I was exhausted. I felt like such a mess... I continued to cry until my eyes felt so heavy that I couldn't keep them open anymore. My eyes slowly closed and I succumbed to darkness.

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This is all I have completed now, but just now that soon I will post more chapters ^^

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