I am, always, falling

Prologue

"Long time no see!"

I hugged them when I saw them. They were patiently waiting for me, and for the other one. I still feel comfortable about that thing.

"Hi Attorney Gutierrez!" Ady greeted me. Ngumiti ako sakaniya at umupo sa bakanteng upuan.

"How are you?" Vien asked as she placed her phone on the table. Tumango ako ng dalawang beses, "Still stressed." I laughed.

We started talking about ourselves and bragging about what we've become. Ady, a successful actress. And Vien, a doctor.

"Is she coming? I hope not," Vien asked Ady. Napatingin silang dalawa sa 'kin ng tumikhim ako. I was about to speak when someone interrupted us.

"Hi, girls! Tagal nating 'di nagkita ah! How many years? 7?" The new comer asked.

I stopped for a while before awkwardly sipping my wine. Ady gave her an awkward smile before kissing her cheek. Vien, typing on her phone, completely ignoring Jania's prescence.

"Hindi niyo ba ako na-miss?" She asked, looking at us. Why the hell would she ask that to us? Alam naman niya ang sagot!

"Hindi. I'm glad you've asked," Vien gave her a sarcastic smile.

Good thing our food came and we started eating awkwardly. Ady obviously invited Jania to come over and reunite with us, which is the most awkward thing.

Many years have passed but I still can't forget what she did to me- to us.

"I'm going. It's nice to see you again," kinuha ko 'yung handbag ko at dire-diretsong lumabas sa restaurant. I heard Ady calling me but I refused to look back, it really hurts my eyes and my soul to see Jania around.

Pictures of those fucking memories flashed through my mind. I thought I already moved on from that... but I was wrong. Maybe I wasn't, and just pretending I really moved on.

Mahirap naman talagang mag-move on kung matagal pinagsamahan niyo, 'di ba?

[Stella, where are you? Nakalayo ka na ba? Shit, iniwan mo kami dito! Ang awkward!]

I chuckled and just listened to Vien's rants. Hindi pa naman ako nakakalayo mula sa restaurant, though. But I wanted to go away.

"Kaya niyo na 'yan. Matanda na kayo," I laughed. I heard her tsked before saying 'goodbye' to me and ending the call.

I went straight home to my condo and slept. I still have cases to read but I lost my energy about what happened a while ago. I mean, I was expecting that she'll be invited pero hindi ko alam na kakapalan niya ang mukha niya to come and reunite with us, her friends before.

My sleep was long kaya nagising ako ng madaling araw. I fixed myself and wore a black satin dress and stilettos. I let my wavy hair down and did my make-up light before going to the parking lot.

I drove all the way to BGC. I want to drink, I want to forget.

The bad smell of alcohol welcomed me when I got there. There were so many people partying na halos makipagsiksikan na ako. I went straight to the counter and ordered a martini.

I had so many shots na hindi ko na mabilang. I was about to drink my 10th shot when someone held my wrist and drank my drink. Pinanliit ko ang mata ko para tignan kung tama ba ang nakikita ko o baka naman namamalikmata ako.

"Stop. Nakakarami ka na," he said.

Napakunot ang noo ko and held my head because my mind was spinning and my vision is blurry.

"Pucha. Inom kasi ng inom, hindi naman pala kaya," I heard him whispered before holding my waist for support.

Tinanggal ko ang pagkakahawak niya at buong tapang siyang hinarap. I stopped when out eyes met. His eyes were very familiar to me, like I've seen it before.

"Astella, let's go," he held my wrist again to pull me but I was just standing there like a damn statue until realizing it's him.

The guy that I loved before.

"Seith." I whispered.

Napatigil siya at dahan-dahang inalis ang pagkakahawak sa pupulsuhan ko. Nakikipagtalo na ang mga mata niya sa mata ko.

He was completely staring at me. His eyes were full of pain.

Like he never cheated at me.

"Stella..."

"Fucking cheater."

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