I am, always, falling

05

"Tabi mo na lang diyan,"

I parked my car in front of a drug store. Taas-kilay akong nakatingin sakaniya, sabi niya kasi punta muna kami dito. I don't even know why. Maybe he's sick at napilitan lang na uminom kasama ako? I'm starting to feel guilty.

"Are you sick?" I asked him. He stared at me before going down and went inside the drug store. I waited for him to get out, he was holding a small plastic bag. 

"What's that?" I pointed at the plastic.

"Gamot." he answered. 

I looked at him, feeling guilty now. Why would he accept my offer if he's sick? 

"We should not drink," I told him as I turn the steering wheel.

He looked at me witch confusion in his eyes, "Ba't naman? Sayang binili mo," he said.

I glanced at him before gulping, "Kasi you're sick. You bought meds pa oh," I said and pointed at the small plastic.

Napataas ang kilay ko nang marinig ko ang mahinang pagtawa niya. He's staring at me, smiling like an idiot. 

"Sino may sabing sa 'kin 'tong gamot na 'to?" he asked, smirking.

"K-Kanino?" I asked, avoiding his stare.

"Sa 'yo. Baka mahilo ka nanaman ng todo." 

I felt my heart pounding and I don't even know why. He bought meds for me? Should I feel annoyed, happy, touched, or.. kilig? 

Oh, no.

I stopped in front of my condo and went inside. Seith was following me hanggang sa marating namin 'yung unit ko. Good thing I cleaned it before going home to the mansion. 

"Sure kang mag-isa ka lang dito?" he asked while roaming his eyes.

I placed the canned beers on the counter, "Yeah, why?" I looked at him.

"Ang laki kasi. Hindi ba't parang ang lungkot n'on?" he asked.

I admit it though, I feel alone everyday. My friends are always there for me but they also have their own lives. Besides, I don't want to bother them and sharing my problems to them. Ayokong mahawa sila sa kalungkutan ko. I guess, it's nicer to keep your problems to yourself.

"Okay lang," I said as I place the beers on the coffee table.

My brow rose up when I caught Seith staring at me. Ba't ba tingin siya nang tingin sa 'kin? I felt conscious with my face now. 

He shook his head and sipped on his beer. He, again, roamed his eyes. He looked amused with the interior of my unit. White and brown ang theme ng unit ko. Black and white is too boring for me.

"Seryoso ka talaga? Mag-isa ka lang?" he asked again.

I nodded, "Oo nga. Bakit? Sasamahan mo ba ako?" I asked him and gave him a teasing smile. My smile faded away when he looked at me with his serious face.

"Kung oo, papayag ka?" he asked me.

I looked away and secretly nodded while drinking my beer. I do think I need company here. Mahirap ngang mag-isa.

Tumabi ako sakaniya at nagsimula kaming uminom. We started talking about our lives, which is I never expected since I'm not interested with his life.. unlike now.

"May kapatid akong babae, mas bata sa 'kin, pero mas matalino pa kesa sa 'kin. Pucha, nanliliit ang brain ko!" he said. 

I laughed while looking at him. He said that he took law because of his mother. Gusto kong itanong sakaniya kung ano ba talaga ang course na gusto niyang kunin, but I want to take some time. Maybe it's too personal for him. Sino ba naman ako para malaman 'yon?

Sino nga ba?

"E, ikaw? Ba't ka din nag-law?" he asked, looking at me while drinking his beer.

"Because of.. K-Drama," I answered.

Napatingin ako sakaniya ng hindi siya umimik. I laughed at his reaction, his brow raising and looking at me like I'm an idiot.

"Bakit hindi doctor? Mas maraming K-Drama na puro doctor," he asked.

"One year ang tanda ni Vien at Jania sa 'min ni Ady. Vien took medicine and I saw how pressured she was with her course. Kaya, nag-law na lang ako," I shrugged. He chuckled and shook his head and drank his beer.

He looked up when I stood. I placed my hand in front of him, to help him stand. He stared at it for a while before taking my hand. He looked red, like drunk. Hindi pa naman ako gaanong ka-lasing since I only had 3 beers.

Hinila ko siya papunta sa balcony inside my room. He stopped when he realized kung s'an ko siya ipupunta. He looked at me, eyes widened.

"Shit. U-Uwi na p-pala ako." he was about to leave when I dragged him papasok sa kwarto at dinala sa balcony.

I leaned on the fence and watched the view. I felt Seith beside me and leaned too. We are now watching the moon and stars shining.. for us. I smiled.

"It's pretty, right?" I looked at him.

Napatigil ako ng nakatitig rin siya sa 'kin. His eyes were hooking into mine, na para bang mawawala ako kapag tumingin siya sa iba.

I scoffed when he walked towards me. Gustuhin ko mang maglakad palikod pero.. bakit hindi ko kaya? 

"Sorry,"

I was about to speak when he held my chin and placed his lips on mine. His hands went down until it reached my waist. I hooked my arms on his neck and responded to his kiss.

Sa oras na 'to.. ayokong umalis at pigilan siya. It's like I'm being hypnotized by him. Suddenly, I remembered what Jania told me. 

And shit, I think I just caught feelings.