half of the time [tsukkiyama]

extra: playlist ✔️

alrighty, so this is gonna be an explanation for all the songs that are on the playlist tsukishima made for yamaguchi.

i wanted it to be pretty authentic, so i took some time to actually make a playlist and think about what songs should go on, and all the meaning behind it, so here we go.

also, if you wanna listen to it, you can just screenshot this and scan it to download it on spotify.

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Falling for U ~ Peachy!, mxmtoon:

so in general, this playlist is tsukki reflecting back on their relationship from the very start, so this is him thinking back to the time when he first realized he started to like yamaguchi as more than a friend.

Out of My League ~ Fitz and The Tantrums:

this is him sorta coming to terms with his crush, but thinking that yamaguchi would never like him back, and that he's way out of his league.

Dandelions ~ Ruth B.:

this is him thinking, even if yams is out of his league, he's really hoping that he might like him back that way or notice his feelings and hopefully reciprocate them.

Someone To You ~ BANNERS:

sorta following the same line as the last one where he just wants yamaguchi to notice him and wants to be a special person in his life.

Make You Mine ~ PUBLIC:

by this point he's sort of realized that hang on, yamaguchi does like him back, and he's trying everything he can to get his attention and try to date him, and eventually they get into a relationship.

Collide ~ Rachel Platten:

so this is sort of the regret he feels for ignoring yamaguchi and their relationship for that time, and kind of expressing his sorrow and remorse.

The Promise ~ Superfruit:

1) the fact that this is a cover and not the og has no significance, i just like this version better than the original.

2) the actual meaning. this is him saying "i know that i messed up, but please give me a second chance, i promise i'll still be here for you. you don't have to rely on strangers for comfort. i'm here."

HOLD YOU DOWN ~ X Ambassadors:

the reparation of their relationship and showing that things still can work out and that the spark isn't lost, and everything can maybe not exactly go back to normal, but it can still be good and healthy.

hey hey hey

it's me again, and i've now taken the time to write out the little notes that i imagine tsukki wrote for yamaguchi to go with each song.

(just to cite my sources: "then i gave it a special cover, with a little lyric packet, and wrote notes with each song explaining why i chose them.")

so these are notes TO yamaguchi FROM tsukki's pov.

falling for u: "when i first realized that i had fallen for you, i was so scared that i would mess things up between us, i could never imagine telling you how i felt."

out of my league: "you're so perfect, when i started fantasizing about a relationship with you, i thought that's all it would be: fantasies. i thought you were out of my league and would never want someone like me."

dandelions: "despite my worries that you would never like me, i still had a little hope and wished that you would notice me in a romantic way."

someone to you: "i knew that i was already important to you as a friend, but i just really wanted to be someone of significance in your life that you'd always remember, even if we parted ways later on."

make you mine: "i started to gain some confidence and started my attempts to win you over. i was very surprised and happy when we started dating, and it felt like the best day of my life. 2019 年 8 月 4 日 ♡"
(in japanese, date is written: year, month, day, and after each number are the kanji for "year" "month" and "day"
so he wrote their anniversary)

collide: "i didn't even realize i started acting cold and distant until you pointed it out, and when that happened, it felt like i couldn't breathe and my stomach dropped. i was so scared to lose you and i just really hoped that you would give me a second chance."

the promise: "i promise you that i'll always be there for you, no matter what. even if we break up, i still want to be your best friend, so you don't have to look to a stranger for comfort."

hold you down: "i hope that our relationship can be repaired and i can keep holding you. i just want to be here for you to comfort you when needed, and i don't want you to have any doubts about our relationship again."

anyway, if you've read this far, congrats, hope you liked that, and thanks for reading!