The Ideal and the Real

On the Way Back

I took the bus to get to the mall. I'll get picked up by one of my parents there. It wasn't too bad this time; I was one of the first people to get on it. Luckily, only one ride was required for me while most people have to take two. I spent my time reading my textbooks on the way back. I was still upset that I let a guy take the textbook on the course I'm the most interested in.

I mean, seriously. He said he has all that experience with filming, but could he at least given me a chance to get it? I know I didn't fight for what I wanted, but I had a valid reason to have it instead of him. I can't believe that guy! Whatever his name is. I guess I want to know his name, so I can talk about this issue with my family.

The bus ride has been fun with reading the textbooks. Time to do one of favourite things in the world: go to the mall! I don't buy things every time I enter, but window shopping around various stores makes me very happy.

I'm pretty weird when it comes to the stores I go to. First of all, I'm not girly. I think clothing shops made for girls my age have the ugliest clothes available. Especially during the summer. They're just plain bad. Most tops during the summer are too revealing for me. I'm not a fan of shorts either. You can just say the clothes I wear are what guys can wear (simple T-shirts and sweaters), with the exception of skinny jeans. Okay... some guys wear those too, but I don't think they're made for them. There are occasional times when I dress like a girl. Sometimes, I put on a nice knee-length dress when I feel good about myself. I could also wear low heels if I wanted to. That's the most girly I could get. I wear earrings, rings and necklaces sometimes, but it's pretty rare. I have no time to put that stuff on. I also don't know how to style my hair the way girls do. I either keep it the way it is, tie it back or curl it with an automatic curler. I'm glad automatic curlers exist. Mine helps me out a ton. I put one strand of my hair at a time and the curler does the work instead of my twirling it when needed.

Another reason for me not being girly is because I love gaming. Gaming is my life! Okay, not really, but ever since I was a little kid, I played video games with my brother. When I get stuck on a level, I get a bad case of gamer's rage and complain about the level being impossible. This started to happen when I was just my seven-year-old self wanting to beat the in-game opponent by getting to the finish line before he did. He was too fast for me! However, after what felt like a million tries, I beat him! The game as a whole was a ton of fun. I wish modern games were like it. Most of the video games today focus on graphics (mostly the boy games!) and not gameplay. Graphics don't make a game. Looks aren't everything. But now the world has its eyes set on the aesthetics of things. Which is pretty sad. Now games for kids are way too easy, meaning that the kids who play them won't get gamer's rage. They should have a bit of it in their lives! Modern games aren't as fun as the games I've played as a kid. Either that or the kid inside of me has died out.

I look around to see if any new movies come out on DVD. Not a lot of people watch DVDs anymore. They either have a subscription to a movie service on their devices (which has a really bad selection) or go to the movies (which I think is gross because the last time I went, there was so much trash was on the floor). I love the sort-of old fashioned DVDs because of their bonus features. I love watching the behind-the-scenes videos. It's amazing how people can make what's impossible in real life happen on a screen. I love it when they show the actors in a green (or blue) screen room with strong wind blowing in their faces. With these screens surrounding them, any type of background can be placed digitally. For example, you could be floating in outer space with the help of the green screen. I've seen many movies that have done this.

There you have it. I told you what my interests are. I'm a girl who likes movies and games instead of popular songs and make-up. I'm not the average girl. People have made fun of me for not being like them. They keep judging me all the time. Why judge me if you don't like being judged yourself?

I entered an electronics store and looked at all the cool devices. TVs, laptops, music speakers, headphones, games, you name it! They were all there. But there was something that struck me. Something I've wanted for a long time. A 32GB USB flash drive. It's pretty cool to put all the videos I've worked hard on there as well as my scanned drawings. It's like my storage for creativity! But oh well, not like I'd be able to get the money for it anyway. It's 40 bucks. I don't even work or have a large allowance, so I might as well save up. But I keep spending it on the little things like food. I'm always hungry.

During that time, I was. I walked over to the food court and ordered fries at my favourite restaurant. These particular kind of fries are called poutine. The fries contain cheese curds and gravy. One of the reasons why I love Canada! America doesn't offer this kind of stuff.

When I got picked up, my mind still lingered on having the flash drive. I need it for my upcoming projects. I MUST have it. But I don't know how.