Befriending the broken girl

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                            Olivia's P.O.V
After Jordan left Ezra walked out of his room super drunk he threw his empty beer bottle at me I ducked and watch as the bottle shattered against the wall
"No one will ever love you I don't even think your parents loved you" he slurs his words but his words hurt me maybe he's right "Get out of my face I don't want to see you next time don't bring anybody in this house ever again" I shake my head okay he grabs his keys off of the table and slams the door behind him I went to my room and stared at my ceiling I grabbed my phone and scrolled through my playlist til I saw my moms favorite song I let my finger hover over the song I listen to heaven on repeat and imagine my parents dancing along to that song in heaven I cry myself to sleep I wake up my eyes hurt from crying so much I look in the mirror and feel disgusted with my appearance I brush my teeth and wash my face afterwards I brush my hair and change my clothes and go downstairs to see Ezra's car gone he must've left early I walk to school I don't want to be around people today I walk into the school and see that the halls are empty I bump into one of Emilia's minions
"To bad your momma never taught you manners before she died" I feel a pain in my heart
"You don't know anything about my mom" I speak in hushed tone hoping she doesn't hear me
"Sorry what?" I try walking past her but she grabs my arm and squeezes I feel something wet run down my arm she lets go and looks at her hand there's blood on her hand "ugh your disgusting" she looks like she's disgusted with me after she walks away I head to the bathroom and wash my arm I watch the blood run down and I feel tears run down my face I think about how my mom would feel about me doing what I'm doing she would be so disappointed in me I wrap tissue around my arm and rinse my face I can't stop the tears that fall I leave the bathroom and head to Spanish class I can feel Jordan starring at me I keep my head low avoiding his gaze he nudged my arm and I move my hair so that he can't see me once the bell rings I quickly grab my stuff and leave the classroom I walk staring at the grounding look up for a minute and I trip on someone's foot causing all of my books to scatter on the ground Emilia and her friends laugh as I start to pick up my books and see Jordan start to help me  I look up at him and he hugs me I don't know what to do but he holds me tight and I remember my dad holding me tight whenever I had a bad dream or when I scraped my knees I hug him back and start to cry after a minute he pulls me up and pulls me to the janitor closet I collapse on the ground holding my head and I can't help all the tears that come out I can't help but start sobbing "what did I do to make everyone hate me?" I feel tired and week my body aches from all pain I try to wipe my tears away with my arm "Ezra's right" of course he's right I start sobbing again Jordan looks at me I can't look at him I don't want him to see how broken I am
"What do you mean?" He puts his hand under my chin and makes me look at him
"He's right" I look down at my hands and he grabs my hands but I don't care that he's holding my hands the only thing is that he's right no one will ever love me
"he's right no one will ever love me my parents both died I have no one"I couldn't keep in my tears any longer Jordan held me and allowed to cry on his shoulder I feel so broken he never let go and just held me even when the bell rang for us to go to our next class we just stood in their til the end of the school day