Bts Collection

He Tries to Hide His Tears: Jimin

You were spending the night at your boyfriend, Jimin's, apartment after a long week. The two of you have been working so much lately that you've barely gotten to see each other so you spent your entire Saturday cuddling, watching scary movies and eating Chinese takeout with him... and you could not be happier.

After heating up your bowl of lo mein in the kitchen, you head back to the living room where Jimin is finishing up one of your favorite movies, About Time. He's never seen it before so he's completely immersed in the plot. From the kitchen, you could hear him mumbling comments as if the characters in the movie could hear him. You stand behind the couch and watch him in admiration as he sits with his hands covering his face. You knew what part this was, it was the one where the main character confesses everything to his love. You've seen the movie enough times so you don't cry anymore. He drops the final line and you hear a little yelp come from the couch before Jimin pulls his knees to his chest. You shake your head and chuckle before putting your dish back in the sink. You head back to the couch to see how he's doing but he's no longer there. He probably went to the bathroom. You sit down on the couch and wait for him but as soon as you exit out of the movie you hear noises coming from the hall. What is he doing? You stand up and shuffle over to the bathroom down the hall. You nosily put your head to the door and hear sniffling.

"Jimin?" You lightly tap the door. "Are you okay in there?"

"Yeah I'm okay. I'll be out in a second ok?" He says but his voice is broken and raspy.

"Please open the door." You know the movie upset him and you feel bad for not being there to comfort him. A couple seconds later, the door cracks open and a puffy eyed Jimin peeks his head around. Your heart immediately shatters at the sight. You've only seen him cry once before a long time ago. You wonder why the movie had this much of an effect on him.

"Awe baby, come here." You say and push the door open. His face immediately tenses up with more tears producing in his eyes as he throws his arms around your shoulders. He sobs into your neck and you rub up and down his back. "Shh, you're okay." You cooed.

"I didn't want you to see me like this. I feel weak." He mumbles against your hair and you feel even worse. Its hard to hear that he wants to hide himself from you but you're glad he let you help.

"It's okay, I still think of you as love of my life so nothing's changed." You admit and he chuckles through his tears. "Lets go back to the couch and I'll make you some cocoa okay?" You put your hands on his shoulders and push back. He nods and you take his hand in yours, leading him back to the living room. He plops down on the couch and looks down as the last bit of tears fall from the tip of his little nose. Instead of making his cocoa, like you promised, you crawl into his lap and he looks at you surprised. You place your hands on his cheeks and let out a breath before wiping the excess tears away with your thumb. He places his hands on your legs and leans into your touch. "Boys can cry to you know. I don't want you to feel like this makes you any less of a man than you were before. If anything, seeing this side of you makes me feel even more connected to you as a person." You say and he takes your hands and intertwines his fingers with yours.

"I'm sorry, I won't hide from you anymore." He says looking into your eyes and you can't help but smile. That's all you've ever wanted to hear.

"Are you okay though? Was it just the movie?" You ask, concerned and he chuckles embarrassedly. 

"Yeah. The dads character reminded me a lot of my own dad. I just haven't seen him in awhile and I miss him." He shrugs and pouts a little. You know more tears will come if you don't say something.

"That's okay, I miss your dad too." You smile and reach back up to wipe his cheeks. "Lets give him a call, okay? See if he can come visit next weekend. I'm sure he'd be happy to hear from you."

"You know I love you with everything in me don't you? How did I find someone like you?" He looks at you with wide eyes and your not even sure what you did to deserve this kind of praise in this moment, you just wanted to help him be happier.

"I love you too, now do you want that cocoa?" You raise your eyebrows and point to the kitchen.

"I don't care about cocoa right now." He says before wrapping his arms around you and lightly pushing you back onto the couch. He hovers over you for a moment before planting a small, soft kiss on your lips. "But thank you for offering." He smiles, with his face inches from yours. Then he lowers himself onto your chest and wraps his arms tightly around your torso.

"Any time my love." You say and stroke his silky hair. You're glad to have found someone like Jimin. He makes you feel so loved and you wish to hold onto him for as long as he lets you.