I walked back to Brian's bedroom with shame and guilt lingering over me.
I walked over to my bag in the corner and hid my binder. I crossed my arms so he couldnt see my chest.
"Hey john."
"Hi brian." I said quietly.
"Are you ok?"
I nodded slowly and kept my eyes focused on the floor.
"John, dont lie to me. You're clearly not ok."
I felt tears well up in my eyes as I stood there staring at the floor.
"C'mere"
I slowly walked over to Brian's bed and sat next to him.
He put an arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him.
"Please John, what's wrong?"
I swallowed hard and looked away.
I didnt have the guts to tell him.
I just couldn't.
Not yet.
