How it was

We're All Changing

The walk back was beginning to seem like it would never end. It was hard to just walk back when all I could think about was Carol. I felt as if I could feel her eyes burning holes in my back. If Rick hadn't of told Glenn and Maggie to watch her, I don't think I could have walked back with them. I probably would have asked Daryl if we could just walk back later. I wondered silently if Rick would have even allowed that. In the beginning, Rick had been a sheriff with, of course, his wife Lori and his son Carl. His best friend, Shane. His life, I had heard, I've been pretty much perfect. Then, he supposedly got shot on one of his jobs and had to be sent off to the hospital. He wound up in a coma and didn't wake up until after the apocalypse was well underway. Thus, he was separated from his wife and son. The only reason I knew, was because of Carol. This would be her helping me learn the ropes. She was just trying to fill me in with everyone's background.

After Rick woke up, he had stumbled out of the hospital and somehow made it to Atlanta where he ran into Glenn. Glenn saved Rick's life and brought him back to be part of his group that decided to tag along for this mission; this group. Together they joined forces to save the day and safely made it back to the others at their base. I don't know exactly where that was but Carol had told me that it was in a secluded area up in the mountains. There, Rick was reunited with Lori and Carl. Carol told me it was a special moment that gave her hope. Of course, I wasn't there to witness it because I hadn't shown up until later when the group was stationed at Hershel's farm.

Rick supposedly wasn't always so cold. When he first joined the group, Carol told me that Rick was one of the warmest and kindest people she had ever met. Believe it or not, that was kind of hard for me to believe. I mean, it wasn't that I thought Rick wasn't a good person because that wasn't it. It was just that hard times and hard decisions had caused us to all change. As a matter of fact, I don't know anybody who probably hasn't changed because this apocalypse. I'd like to believe that Carol was a nice person before all of this started. She was when I first got here but I guess other feelings got the better of her. I was kind of upset about it if I was being honest with myself. Carol and I had been so close and I couldn't believe how she acted over Daryl taking a liking to me. I tried to think about what it would be like if somehow Carol never let it affect her. Oh, what a life that would be, if we would have never changed. . .