Cinderella

23

*ella*

It's been a couple of weeks and I know if I don't do something about this thing inside me, I'll be screwed forever. I'm not old enough for an abortion with out a parent knowing so I stopped eating completely. I'm hoping that I'll miscarriage and this nightmare will be over. Ruby and Demi finalized there divorce and Ruby gave up custody of me. She's completely out of my life, I've also been noticing my weight is dropping dramatically and I can't not say I don't like the results.

"Cinderella! Dinner!" Demi called over the intercom. I rolled my eyes, I do not have the energy to deal with anyone right now. Fiona is starting to get on my nerves, I feel like she's taking my mom from me. There's nothing I can do because she's legally adopted. We've been acting more like siblings rather then friends. We fight all the time, and it's like she's purposely trying to come between me and MY mom.

I ran my fingers through my hair and my hair started falling out in clumps. I dyed my pink hair back to black because up keep was a lot harder then I thought.

I walked down the stairs throwing on an oversized hoodie. "Hey Chloe." I smiled, she gave me a soft smile and wave. I sat down next to Demi as she handed me a very full plate of food.

Fiona talked about her new coping skills she's learning, even though Demi wants to send her to treatment because her mental state is deteriorating. She can't even sleep, she's very irritable, and so much more.
I stared at my plate of food, that I've been playing with trying to make it look like I'm eating. I put some in my napkin, I fed some to Batman.

As everyone finished I still had a lot on my plate. "Can you eat some more?" Demi asked me.

"Hello? Earth to Ella." Demi waved her hand in front of my face. "Huh? What?" I asked shaking my head.

"I'm not hungry." I said pushing away my plate, even though my stomach was growling and cramping. Demi sighed loudly, "is there something I need to know?"

"No, I'm just not hungry." I slouched back in my seat, crossing my arms. "Please eat some more."

"Oh my god." I mumbled under my breath. "I told you I'm not hungry which means I'm not FUCKING HUNGRY!" I yelled standing up from my chair and grabbing my plate.

I walked to the counter and put it on there, "excuse me? You will not talk to me in that way! I am your mother damnit!" Demi shot back, "well I wish you weren't!"

With that I ran upstairs leaving everyone shocked, I slammed my bedroom door. I was starving, I felt all the emotions at once. "GOD FUCK!" I screamed, I started banging my fists on the wall and as soon as that stopped hurting I moved to my head.

"What the fuck are you doing?" Fiona asked opening my door. "Oh my god leave me alone!"

With that she lakefront and shut my door, I needed to go to the store and pick up a medicine that will end a pregnancy. I literally haven't eaten in 3 weeks, I mean besides ice and like 10 almonds a day.

I grabbed my bag, and walked down the stairs and stole Demi's car keys. I walked outside and jumped in her car and drove to Walgreens.

When there I looked for this pill called Mifepristone, it should end the pregnancy.

I went and paid for it and then left because people were staring at me.