CAN YOU FEEL MY HEART

as if

you paddled your way through the ocean with naked arms. swam and swam until the ocean hue blinded you with its toxic blue. and to be fair, i never quite understood why as if the perfect shore we had built together wasn't enough.

i remember the sugary sweets you left on my body. i failed to realize they were everywhere as though every morning i would bullet point every single one of them until my body was completely covered. and the thing is, the one spot you left unmarked was my heart as if it was a part you were too scared to touch. scared to feel.

before, i struggled understanding the meaning behind your leave, until i realized i couldn't be with you for the mere reason that you were the reason my mind perished. your toxicity was so strong it wiled me into a blind spot where when you breathed down my pure soul, the burning feeling was as if I was walking on burning sand.

I NEVER ASKED FOR YOU TO STAY AND TO YOU IT WAS AS IF I WAS ASKING YOU TO LEAVE