Sleepless

The backstory

Hi lovelies!! In this chapter I'll be explaining how the couple got together and how Yeosang got his bad mental health!! Enjoy✨

Warning:
This chapter may trigger some sensitive ones; it contains child abuse, bullying and self harm. Read at your own risk!

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Yeosang
Back when I was in high school most people would just ignore me and walk past me.
That's until the one and only Changbin Showed up and started ruining my life.

It started by name calling and threatening him until he decided it wasn't fun enough and started beating me up and making fun of me in front of the whole school.

Everyday I would constantly come home with no more money, ruined notes, dirty clothes and bruises all over me. I started believing him, telling myself I was worthless and that I deserved nothing and no one.

I completely locked myself out of the real world and was stuck in my dark and lonely mind. The only person who kept trying to get me out of this phase was lee Felix.

He was a nice guy, pretty shy but understandable and a very good listener. At some point I thought I was in love with this angel sent from heaven to save me from hell. But he rejected me saying I was only in love with the way he treated me and how he was the only one there for me.

He opened my mind to so many things, I learned about nature and how the animals worked, I leaned how to cook for myself and how to plan my weekends, I learned how to plan my notes and hide them from changbin so he wouldn't ruin them.

He made me learn so much to get away from my mind every single weekend I would spend with him I'd learn something new.

I thought I was finally getting better, well that's until my stupid father decided to leave the house after beating up my mother telling her it was all my fault that she was bad at doing anything she tried to do.

That's when my mother became a homophobic and alcoholic on drugs nightmare.

Every day when I got home from school I would receive another beating and would get starved if I didn't let her hit me.

Obviously I didn't tell Felix, scared that he'll start to think of me as a helpless boy who demands attention.

My mother would only slap me and kick me in the stomach until she really went far and called in all her alcoholic friends, attached me to a chair, and started beating me till I was bleeding all over while her friends tell her to continue and go harder.

And this is when it all came back to me, I started cutting myself and burning myself, I would never cry in fear of her beating me up in my sleep. I'd get maximum 4 hours of sleep per nights and I'd only have the same exact nightmare.

.My own mother slicing my wrist with all the people I love and care for the most around us watching and telling her to do more and deeper  until I bleed out and eventually wake up.

I went to my school therapist in secret and told him everything, his name was mark lee and he was a really friendly and nice man. He was good looking and was amazing at his job.

He did a couple of tests on me and told me I have really bad depression and atelophobia
(Atelophobia is a fear of sleep) he gave me some tips to try and fall asleep which kind of worked since I now got up to 5 hours of sleep each day.

After the school break I wasn't ready to face changbin again but to my surprise right before getting beaten up his friend came in and yelled his name.

Apparently his friend wooyoung had been in the hospital for three months after coping with depression due to bullying. He proceeded to yell at him and curse at him saying how he was disappointed in his 3 years long friend.

When changbin left wooyoung helped me up and cleaned my bruises telling me I can stay with him from now on.

As I got to know him more and more I slowly got to know his bestfriend who was still in the hospital,
His name is san he's a really outgoing person and hes always smiling. He's in the hospital because of his mother who has cancer and he's staying with her because he doesn't wanna waist any time given to be with her.

I honestly find this fact adorable and he seamed nice!

Summer break came by and I spent all my time with woosan at the hospital, turns out both boys are dating and love each other very much.

I honestly started developing feelings for both boys and told Felix everything about them and how they make me feel happy whenever I'm with them.

Sooner of later high school ended and I had to go to college which was pretty hard for me since I didn't wanna go to school again especially since the only school accepting me was the school of changbin's parents.

I decided to take one year off and work to get money and as soon as i got enough I moved out of his hell hole to a brand new appartement in the middle of Seoul with my two best mates
San and wooyoung.

3rd pov

It was pretty small there was one bathroom and a separate toilet, two rooms and a small kitchen with a very tiny living room. But the trio loved it because it was their own money and no one else's. It was their individual freedom.

Yeosang told them about wanting to become an idol and that he wasn't gonna go to school and to his surprise San was already signed with an entertainment and wooyoung thought about joining one as well.

After 4 months of training with wooyoung and learning the song they went to bighit entertainment and auditioned.

After what felt like forever the two boys got accepted and started training. San himself was in KQ entertainment and met hongjoong and seonghwa who were really nice and caring boys.

A year later yeosang got tired of his useless dance training and decided to move to KQ entertainment. Wooyoung followed and said;
"I moved because of you, I want to fail with you if we fail and succeed with you if we succeed"

To this yeosang got emotional and kissed him without thinking. Wooyoung answered the kiss and later said that San and him have been crushing on the said boy for as long as he can remember.

The trio began dating openly at the company but weren't allowed to show it to the public

Now yes obviously they still had all their mental issues and problems and yeosang still had his phobia and insomnia but the boys only thought he was depressed and tried their best to make him feel loved and accepted.

This leads us to now. ATEEZ. 8 boys coming from a small company hitting 1 million and instagram and getting their first win the their song wave. And now they're finally making a comeback with a new and highly awaited album names : answer

What is your treasure

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Hi again lovelies! Thank you Sm entertainment for reading this chapter I hope you enjoyed it! See you next time!

Remember to stay healthy
And you're all loved and appreciated by someone in this wide world 💜

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