Guilty conscience

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“Oh my god. Halie says to herself in disbelief and frustrating. She quickly rises from my bed walks over to my drawer taking a pair of pajama pants and a t-shirt, she walks into the bathroom; slamming the door behind her.

I grab my phone and take a deep breath.

“Are you okay?” He asks in low, concerned tone, “No.” I start to cry. “Baby, please don’t cry.” He pleads. “How can I not?!” I boast furiously. “Because if it turns out you are pregnant…” He says uncomfortably, “Then I will be by your side every step of the way, no exceptions. No way. I love you. I swear to god, I won’t leave you. I’m serious, yeah, okay so it’s been a week. I don’t care, it feels like a year.” He pours out, which only makes me cry harder. I cry for a little bit longer.

“Say something.” He says anxiously. “I’m so scared.” I bawl. “I am too,” He confesses. “How do I tell my mom if I actually am? It’ll break her heart Nash.” I choke up, crying harder just thinking about it. “If it turns out you are, I will fly down there and we will tell her together.” “I need you so much right now.” I whisper, I hear soft whimpers and sniffles on the other side. He’s crying. Way to break the other half of my hear NASH.

“You have no idea how much I miss you and you left like 6 hours ago.” I say, in total distress. “This is going to such DA booty.” I say and he chuckles, I smile a slight smile.

“Nash! Meeting in 15 let’s go!” I hear Cam call. “Cameron just walked in. I have to go.” “I miss you more than anyone has ever missed before.” I tell him. “I miss you more than Reggae misses Bob Marley.” I smile a bit. “I love you.” He says sincerely, giving me butterflies. The good kind.
“I love you too.” “Have a good first day of school.” He says and I immediately sink into sadness. “I have school tomorrow.” I groan. “Don’t miss that at all. Love you Leigha.” He laughs. “Love you to Hamilton.” “Not cool.” He says seriously. “Haha bye.” “Bye.” He laughs, I click the end button with a smile on my face.

Right on cue Halie comes out of the bathroom in my pajamas. She looks at me with sympathetic eyes, we simultaneously run towards each other, embracing in a hug.

“I love you. I’m sorry for acting like that.” She apologizes, “I totally understand why. Don’t apologize.” I tell her. “I heard you guys. He’s a really good guy.” I smile with tears in my eyes.

“Girls! Dinners ready!” Momma bear calls. We pull away and go downstairs. I get to the landing go around the corner, my eyes landing on my mom, I feel sick. We all sit down, and start eating, my mom and Halie talk mainly. Mom tried to talk to me but I responded with a simple head nod or shake, or a shoulder shrug, Avoiding ALL eye contact.

I quickly finished, I dump my extra food, not wanting to eat anymore due to the fact that I feel extremely sick. This guilt is literally making me sick. I go upstairs changing into some boy shorts and a tee, plopping down in my bed grabbing my phone, going into Snapchat.

Oh. My. Gosh. Ya’ll. 15,381 SCREENSHOTS! What the fuf?! I go onto twitter, 300,782 followers?!

Mentions:

@nashgreir
Seriously love this girl to death… I love you Aleigha Wells. See you soon! God she’s perfect… MINE! Back off! XD Love you sweetybooboo! @wellsiswatterbuggin

Well that explains it. 102,457 others. He shows up first. I tweet his back:

@wellsiswatterbuggin
I love you more Nash!!! See you soon. Not even 6 hrs you’ve been gone. MISS YOU COOKIEKINZ @nashgreir

I text Charlie and James, right after I push send the door opens and the lovely Halie Madison walks in. She jumps on the bed.

“Are you excited for tomorrow?!” She says energetically “Ecstatic.” I say straight faced with a monotone. “I was so bored with0ut you there the first week.” She says plopping down backwards, almost falling off. I laugh and respond “Well in here now!” It’s 6:02, James and Charlie never did text back, on their flight probably.

“Okay so can I ask you something?” Halie starts, “Shoot.” I say sitting up straight “Was it good?” She says giving me that grin, “Was what good?” I ask confused “Ummm hello?! You and Nash!” She boasts, m face flushes with a sense of heat I can feel. “I’m not talking about this.” I say embarrassed shaking my head, “What?! Why?! Please yes or no that’s it.” She exclaims, I hesitate for a few moments. “Yes” I say quietly, “Now stop talking about ti!” I shout with a smile on my face.

We stay up until 9:30, we decided to wake up at 5:00, shoot… Imma look good thank you!

‘Goodnight beautiful love all the way’ Nash texts me

‘Goodnight handsome love never runs out’ I respond

‘Never ever’

‘Hopefully…’

It won’t I promise.’

‘Miss you tooo ;)’

‘I need my Nash back!’

‘You will.’

‘Goodnight babe”

‘Night gorgeous’

I lay down thinking about 3 things. Nash of course. What tomorrow is going to bring. And 3rd. The possibility that I may be carrying Nash Grier’s baby.

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