Royal Mate

Chapter 8- If I could've fallen in love with you first

Luke POV

"Please wake up, please just open your eyes." I say under my breath as I look around the room.

"Do you see her?" Jace asks me as he leans on the wall the separate the living room from the dinning room and kitchen. I continue looking all over the room.

"No." I take deep breath, and I think I'll have a panic attack. "But her heart still isn't beating and I cant feel the sparks, she isn't alive." I start letting out soft sobs.

"There is still hope. She isn't gone until you see her spirit again."

"OLIVIA IM SO SORRYYYY!" Nicolas starts crying out from the dining room.  Jace leaves me alone with her in the living to go attend to his son.

I put my head down and bring her hand to my face.

This feeling I get from her hand. It sends shivers down my spine. They felt great. They were our sparks from our mate bond.

Her eyes open slowly and they meet mine. I was relieved.

"What happened to me this time?"

"Nickolas showed you something and you seized. Then your heart stopped."

"But then you made it just in time. True love, mates touch is what brought me back?" I didn't say anything. I just wiped my eyes from the tear that slipped out. "How long have we've been sharing a life?"

Truth time.

"Since you were 8 maybe 9, I can't really remember. It was how we were able to keep you alive."

"When did you find out who I was to you?"

"The first day I met you. Not the exact moment but you fainted in my arms later that day. From the touch I just knew because I hated everything about you and in that moment it was gone and replaced."

Silence filled the air as she just stared at me, questions played in her eyes. Finally she speaks up. "I don't know why I went to the lake. It was just a pull. Maybe it was the bond. But I don't have feelings for you. I am in love with Noah. I want to be with him. I made up my mind on that. I am willing to take the risk that I will become more ill if I choose him-."

She said if. Still hope.

"You won't get sick if you choose him. If you choose him the separation won't affect you."

"Yes it will because I am not letting you play hero. You've been playing hero since you came to my pack."

I am taken by surprise, I was playing hero in her book. "I have been playing hero? I think you got it mixed up. You have been playing hero the entire time I was in your pack. Every time I puked and you were nearby you came and made it better. You would clean me and stay with me. The fact that you were around you stopped me from puking way more blood."

She sits up on the bed. "You helped me breathe again, you have stopped my seizure before it could kill me and you just basically brought me back to life right now. That's a hero compared to me just wiping off some blood off of your face."

She really didn't understand her true powers. I grab both of her hands in mine. I make myself level with her. "You prevented so much pain from happening and all you did was stand nearby, you stood nearby without even knowing you would have such affects. You single handedly healed me and you didn't even need to raise a finger. You are my hero even though you may not know it. You have saved me multiple times." Our faces were close to each other, I could simply lean in one inch and our lips would touch.

"But I also hurt you. Didn't I?"

My head jerks back. Why would she think such a thing?

"No you didn't-."

"Yes I did, you don't have to lie. I fell in love with Noah, we stayed in each other's room, and you would feel it too wouldn't you? It hurts you doesn't it?" I look down. I didn't want to lie to her but I didn't want to admit that it did hurt. She uses her hand to make me look at her in the eyes. "I am so sorry I did that to you. I would take it all back because I now know the length you would go through for me." She leans in and I think our lips would meet but instead she kisses my cheek.

"I would go through anything for your happiness." Her arms wrap around me and I enjoy every second of it. My arms wrap around her and I pull her even closer as if that was even possible.

"How old are you?" She muffles from my chest.

"18." I whisper.

"But, you were no younger than 16 when I met you and years have passed."

"When someone finds their mate before their mate is 16 they temporary stop aging."

"How old would you be now?"

"26." Her face comes off of my chest and comes to my ear.

"I need you to move on from me." She whispers in my ear and pulls back to look at me. "I'm in love with Noah." My heart broke. As I look at what a beautiful woman she has become I can see it in her green eyes she was sure of this decision. I nod my head at her. I was in no position to change her mind. I unwrapped my arms from her and pull away. I did my very best to hold back my tears. It hurt knowing the one I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with doesn't want me in her life.

"Wait until your birthday to reject him Olivia." Jace walks into the living room, holding a puffy eyed Nick by his hand. "You said you're sorry for hurting him. Don't reject him now. It'll hurt him and only him because you can't feel the bond like he can. If you plan on leaving him for Noah wait until your birthday to do so." Jace does a head motion indicating for me to go into the kitchen with him. "Nick go apologize to Olivia."

I stand but a tight grasp on my wrist stops me from walking any farther.

"I am sorry. I really am. If I could go back and prevent me from falling in love with Noah I would, but I can't. If I could've fallen in love with you first I would've." 

"I understand. But when he finds his mate, if he doesn't reject her I'll still be here waiting for you."

"Don't. You don't deserve to be second choice. Find someone who's going to make you first. I am not that someone; I don't feel anything for you. You gave me older brother vibes back in my pack. New face, same person. I'll still get those vibes." I cringe at those words. I pull my arms away from her grip.

"Please, don't ever call me a brother figure ever again. I don't care how much you thought I was acting like one but don't bring it up. Please." My voice was stern and I'm pretty sure she took it personal, but I give her my back as I follow Jace to the kitchen.

"She's not going to remember, don't be too sad over this."

"I know she won't remember but... it still hurts at the thought of her being with someone else and that she wants to pick him over me. Her talk about the love she has for him. She's never done that before. I see it in her eyes when she thinks about him and I just can't help but think how badly I want that to be me."

"She's going to pick you. You'll be able to show her all the memories you made together. You'll be able to show her the first time she found out who you were to her. Then the second time and all the other times she accidently found out over the years. You got the memories of all of the ones she forgets. Plus the memories from when she was here in spirit. She'll fall in love with you." Jace head goes stiff and his eyes go blank. The next words that come out of his mouth sound robotic. "I need you to come to the spot tonight. There is something important you should know." Jace blinks hard and looks around dazed. "What did i say?"

I shook my head. "Wasn't that important don't worry about it." I look at his confused hazel eyes. That was Oscars doing.  For him to use Jace body to get a hold of me something either very good or very bad is going to happen. 

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