Are You There, Somewhere? (girlxgirl) [ON HIATUS]

Chapter 12: Swollen Eyes and Dark Circles

Sorry for the late update but I don't think you guys care anymore. Anyway, sorry if the previous chapter broke your heart. This one should shattered it into pieces. Ha.

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Annabelle's POV

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My body barely had more energy left. I was kicking and screaming all the way back to the hotel. No we didn't went over to the apartment to get my stuff back, mother half lied. She said that we will go tomorrow first thing in the morning. And I've been crying since we got into the hotel. It was almost morning and I haven't gotten even a little bit sleep since last night. I sat up forcefully and slapped myself slowly. For the first time since dinner last night, I started to think rationally. Get your shit together Annabelle! I got up and went for the bathroom, careful not to wake my parents. I couldn't deal with them right now. I fucking hated them. I walked to the sink and opened the cold water and just ran the water over my hands. I looked over the mirror and winched as I saw my face. I looked wrecked. My eyes were swollen with dark circles around them, both from not sleeping and crying the whole night and my whole face was red and wet from the tears. I washed my face with the cold water, hoping that somehow it will wash away the obvious sadness from my face.

What am I going to do? I thought as I stare helplessly at myself through the mirror. Kim would know what to do, if she was here. She would help me. But mother took my phone away. I stared into the nothingness for awhile, feeling sorry for myself before I looked up to the mirror again and I hated what I saw.

Look at you, feeling helpless. Just waiting for someone to help you. Always waiting. Couldn't you for once stand up and help yourself!?

My eyes widened.

Couldn't I for once stand up and help myself? That sounded like what Kim would said if she was here. Alright now let's think smart. What did I want? To be with Lana. The problem? Mother and father are taking me back to London. So the solution is? Run away. With Lana.

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I took a few deep breathes and quickly but silently walked out of the hotel room. Thank god mother and father were still asleep. They too were tired from the events last night. Once I was outside the room, I quickly legged off to the lift and brutally clicked the down button. As soon as I got out of the hotel, I went to one of the taxis nearby and literally screamed Lana's address at him. I was panic but overall, I was bloody excited! And as I sat impatiently in the back seat of the taxi, I couldn't help but felt hopeful. Maybe things will get better from now on. I couldn't believe I was actually running away from my family. I had always been the good daughter, the angel. Nobody would had thought I would ever run away. I wouldn't have thought of it too. But that was only because I never had the reason. My parents were over strict and over protected of me, yes. But I loved them unconditionally. But now that they couldn't take me as I am, I wasn't sure about that anymore. I mean, yes I was a bit sad that I had left my family. They were going to be worried sick about me they'd go psycho. This was for your own good Annabelle. You know you couldn't live without Lana. Or with your parents after you knew they couldn't accept you as a lesbian. I tried to calm myself. Some sacrifices are needed for a greater good. Lana once said that to me while we were watching the show Game of Thrones. Oh dear, me and Lana will be so happy together. We might have to move out of New York, but we'll be together. That was all we ever hope for. And we w-